GRAVITY | KAY FLOCK [DISCONTINUED]

XVIII

July 4, 2020
Sevside

It's the Fourth of July. The Sun is shining and the weather is warm. The sounds of loud music, laughter, and kids playing are heard as the smell of barbecue fills the air. The stores are closed and people are off of work enjoying themselves.

My friends and basically the whole block is outside having a great time right now. Except for me. I'm sitting on some random building's steps in my feelings.

I never ended up having that talk with Dougie. And, I've been thinking about it for the last couple of days and I decided to just let go of the situation. Honestly, I'm a little sad about it but I don't think it was gonna work out anyway without some kind of backlash.

And there was always some sort of obstacle getting in the way of me and Jay. Every time we were about to kiss, we got interrupted. For a while, I was too scared of going out in public with him. Then when we were actually about to go out on a date together, he got sick.

It's always something. And I'm not tryna be superstitious or anything but I just think it's weird how things just never work out in our favor.

I finally texted Jay back today to let him know how I was feeling about this shit. And in my opinion, I let him down very easily. I assured him that I do like him. But, the circumstances just aren't ideal for us to date each other.

He didn't take it well. At all.

He's been blowing my phone up with texts, calls, and dms ever since. He keeps pleading for me to hear him out and for us to meet up and talk.

I feel really bad about it but my mind is kinda already made up. I've tried to gently explain this to him in the few replies I've sent him. But he is not having it. So, for now, the notifications persist.

"Moni!" Dougie called my name making my head snap up from my phone screen. Instinctively, I sat up straight and locked my phone.

I looked up seeing a group of our friends looking my way as him, Kay, and Shani walked toward me.

"What?" I yelled back.

"Why you keep disappearing?" Kay asked.

"We was bout to play dodgeball. You'on wanna play?" Shani asked as they arrived in front of me.

"Nah," I said as I looked up at them.

"Why not twin?" Dougie asked before poking his lip out.

Usually, I would laugh at how stupid he looks right now but I'm just not in the best mood. "I just don't want to."

"You being mad boring right now," Dougie complained.

"That's fine," I shrugged making Shani groan.

Kay grabbed me by my wrist and tried pulling me up from the step I was sitting on. "Yo stop acting like that and come play dodgeball with us."

"I just said I don't want to," I said as I resisted him with all of my body weight. I sat back down and tried to remove his hand from my wrist but he wouldn't budge.

"You been moping around and you keep disappearing from the group. What's wrong?" Shani asked and they all looked down at me waiting for an answer.

"Nothing's wrong," I replied.

"You really gone sit here and lie in our faces like that?" Kay asked finally dropping my arm and scrunching up his face.

"It's hot as fuck and I'm hungry. That's it. So imma sit right here in the shade and wait for some food to be done. Is that okay with you Kevin?" I asked with my voice dripping with irritation.