GRAVITY | KAY FLOCK [DISCONTINUED]

XXXI

August 6, 2020
Sevside

"When you coming home, Twin? The crib is mad quiet without you here," Dougie said as the two of us spoke over FaceTime.

Since the incident two days ago, I've been with Shani at DMunna's crib. He was gracious enough to let us stay at his place because Courtlandt is not the move. He's not here most of the time and Shani's (unofficially) in the process of moving in with him anyway.

"Now you know how I feel...But maybe tomorrow when the man comes to change the locks," I told him reluctantly.

I hadn't told him about the breakup yet or why we broke up. I know he's gonna be tight and I don't wanna add this on top of the shit he's already going through.

"Why you getting the locks changed? Only me, you, and Kay got a key," he stated with his face twisted up in confusion.

"...That's the problem. We're not together no more and he won't give my key back," I mumbled.

"That's why you're not at home? Fuck that nigga do to you, Armoni?" He asked with his voice rising in volume as he spoke.

He broke my heart. That's what he did to me.

"Don't worry about it. It's okay, Dougie. I'll get over it. I just don't wanna see him right now," I said lowly with a downcast gaze. "And I don't wanna involve you in our shit. I never wanted our relationship to affect your friendship with him," I expressed truthfully.

"Fuck that! Let me find out he did some stupid shit. Imma hurt that nigga," Dougie said aggressively with widened eyes which let me know that he was being extremely serious.

"Mm-hmm. I hear you...You tryna go to Jamaica with me and Shani? I booked a suite for two weeks and I think you could use a vacation too," I said, attempting to switch the topic.

"Stop playing with me. I know what you tryna do, Armoni," he said.

"Then leave it alone, Arion," I said, making him shake his head in irritation. "Are you going to come with us to Jamaica or not?"

"Yeah, Jamaica sound cool."

"Aight. Imma book your flight. We're leaving on the twel—"

"Fuck bro. I can't go. I'm still on probation and I already know my PO not gone approve my out of the country travel request cus he don't fuck with me like that."

"See Dougie! That's exactly why I told you to stop bothering that nigga."

I brainstormed quietly, trying to find a solution but I couldn't come up with anything other than taking a separate trip in the states. "...Uhhh when I get back, we can plan something else where we ain't gotta leave the country—like LA, Hawaii, Miami, or something. Aight?"

"Aight. That's cool," he said. "Hold on. Swervo calling me. Imma hit you right back."

I sighed after Dougie rushed off of the phone. I locked my phone and set it down immediately after seeing the number of texts that I've received actively go up. I blocked Kay but that didn't stop him from calling and texting me from our friends' phones.

I've been trying so hard to avoid thinking of anything that even slightly reminded me of Kay. Even though I was failing—miserably, I still tried.

I worked. I shopped. I planned a whole two-week vacation with an itinerary. But nothing could prevent my mind from wandering back to thoughts of him anytime I wasn't actively occupied with whatever task I was distracting myself with.

Every time I started thinking of him, I felt heartbroken all over again. My eyes sting and the waterworks begin. Even when I cry, I think of Kay's nickname for me. Crybaby.