I was falling,
I was betrayed,
I was thrown away, I fake a smile,
I lied to myself,
I refused the truth every single day.
but I keep rebuilding myself,
I keep fixing my soul,
I keep fighting my other self,
and now I was drowning in my tears.
the illusion you've made captivated by these memories you left.
for you, it's nothing now but for me, that is an illusion, I can't forget even if I tried.
I said goodbye but doesn't come from my heart. it was nothing but just a word.
I realize I just lied by saying it.
the memories were too good to delete, forget, uninstalled, or throw away.
this sound stupid to others well at least I say it a little bit.
I don't blame you, it is completely my fault.
my fault for giving everything and making you feel alone.
This doesn't make sense for someone like me to get you back even if I want to.
I may be dumb, or hopeless but I am through for seeing the good in you
I blinded the real me with my weakness and stupidity.
{smidget}
