Dear Oppa

Chapter 59

                      October 10, 2022

Mi-sho pov

"good morning doctor " I bow down in front of the lady wearing white apron and smiling at me. "Good morning Ms Kim (Mi-sho's surname is Kim, she is not related to any of the Kim's in BTS so don't get confused )
"How are you doing? " she asked me and I tell her that I am good while adjusting myself on the examination table ...

She came towards me and tell me to relax while she do the sonography of the baby ... I came alone today although Anki was about to join the Busan concert in 5days so I can understand how much work she must have been doing.

"ready ??" I smile at her and she started with her examination ... "see here is your baby ..." I looked at the screen and that particular place that the doctor is pointing at and a tear rolled up from my eyes...

"It's ... It's ... So overwhelming ... I don't know what to say ..." she didn't say anything and gave me the time to process myself. My baby ...my blood and flesh ... I am gonna love you so much my darling ... Suddenly my lone tears turned into a sob ... This kid is going to have a tough life. People are gonna talk shit about his /her father. They are gonna talk shit about me. How is she/he going to handle all of that??? I wish ommaa, appa atlist could have supported me but the day they got to know about it, they decided to abandon me. They never called ... Not even a single massage.

"I know it's not easy to be a single mom... Trust me, I know... I am a single mom, but it's all worth it. When I go home after a long day, the smile of the kids is all I ever needed to recharge myself. I won't tell you to not get scared because that's not possible but all I could tell you is to embrace it ...whatever you are feeling just embrace it. And eventually, it's all going to be ok, trust me I am saying this from my experience". I am so thankful to her for saying whatever she said ... 

I finally bid bye to her and came out of the hospital ...while my phone buzzed ... I picked up the call but before I could speak ...

"Is your checkup done? All ok, r8? How's the baby? How's your health ??? " oh god this man ... "first of all , Yeoboseyo! Jiminshii ... And to answer your question ...yes everything went well ... I and the baby are fine ... And now I'm heading back home". I laugh at his behavior but he didn't stop ... He asked more ... "did you ask her about the feet swelling? And about vomiting ??? " he is such a caring person ...i wish ...no ...don't say that Mi-shooyaaa .... "yes ... Jimin! She told me that it's completely normal to vomit ...it's called morning sickness n all and about the feet, and she gave me oil to massage." I took the cab while talking to him ... "good! Now go home ..  Rest a bit and eat properly ... I swear I am gonna ask the maids about your meals ...so do it " this guy .... Isn't he Park Jimin ?? "Okay boss! Anything else ??? " he just laughed it off and cut the call.

Yes! I have been staying with Jimin for a month now. I had planned to move out but Jimin, taehyung, and even Anki didn't allow me to stay alone. However, max got to know about all of this and he could have killed Nil but thank god to Anki, he didn't do anything harsh. Max wanted me to move in with him but then again he has to travel a lot for his restaurant setting on Jeju Island. So I have to be a pain in Jimin's ass to be exact. We both get along too well no doubt about that ... I mean we have this crazy ice cream party every night because my stupid craving cracks up in the night only.  We talk about our life so much and I got to know so many "oh really??" moments of him. He is known to be a very warm person and he is that of course but it's so heartbreaking to hear about his struggle. How they all had to go through all the criticism and how it discourage them. But again I fell in love with the story of their friendship. And we eventually grow a friendship ourselves.

Sometimes I envy Anki for having an extra caring family, they pampered her like anything, and here look at me, my parents are ashamed of me not just because I got pregnant, they were always ashamed of me. No matter what I did, they were never proud. I topped the class every single year but they were not proud on the other hand, they told me what's there to be proud of. You will eventually marry someone and bear their family name. All my life I have heard those types of words and now with Jimin and Anki, it's all different. They both are so proud of my little things. Anki was always like this but Jimin ... We barely knew each other 1 month before but he gave me shelter to live in, and he always takes care of me, he even tries to cheer me up after my morning sickness. It may sound pathetic but I always lowkey wanted Nil to be like that. However, I think I am finally blessed to have them as my friends.