Dear Oppa

Chapter 63

"mmmm... Can I sit here?" I asked Di who was sitting on the large swing that was placed near the terrace ... She looked at me and moved a bit to make some place for me. I gave her the hot chocolate cup I brought with me while sipping my hot chocolate.

"so ... How's he?" my question brought a smile to her face. Oh ... interesting mentioning he can do these things to her too ... "he is .... Like a ...coconut! Soft from the inside but too hard from the outside. You know when we first started to talk with each other to get to know each other and all the stuff ..he would talk too less ... I used to feel so irritated like dude I am surely making a wrong decision or something but then I get to know him bit by bit. He doesn't like to do small talk so he doesn't get involved in those people might think of him as rude but he is not. He is very intelligent and surprisingly very much into his roots. He always visits temples, and after the bath, he goes to their terrace and prays to the sun all these simple things he does make me fall for him".

"oh my god! Someone is in love", I sequel in excitement. "I can't believe Di, is it you? You just explained his personality to me so perfectly that I can't wait to meet him now, he seems interesting and to top all that you are in love with him". She chuckles at my behavior. I surely behaved maturely but when I got excited I just couldn't control that. "Shhh! Calm down Tiku! And let me tell you he is also excited to meet you ... I have been talking about you so much that he sometimes gets annoyed. "ouch! Di... How can jiju get annoyed by me ... That hurt .... How could he ???? .... " and my sister just rolled her eyes ... "Drama queen you are" and I hugged her before shipping my hot chocolate ....

"Now ...you tell me ... Is it really Kim Taehyung??" and I choked ... What the really fuck?? ... Play dumb ...play dumb... "huh?? What???" I try to play dumb ... But the fact that she knows me too well ... "really? Now you are going to act dumb. Tiku ... I know you way damn well so please tell me honestly ... " oh god ... How the hell did she get to know.  " Di ... Actually, I am sorry I shouldn't have hidden anything from you" . I can see her not smiling but not also frowning ... Well she was easy to read ...what's up with her ... "Tiku ... You know I am not mad at you for not telling me or whatever but baby ... He is an idol ... A celebrity ... His life is completely different from ours. Are you sure about it? Don't get me wrong ...but you are 25 now ... You are not some teenager who just goes around and hooks up for the sake of it. " she hugs me again and I completely understand her point but I need to clear it to her that tae and I are just not hooking up ... We are more than that .... "Di ... Him and I are not hooking up, we are way more than that ... I ... I love him ... And he loves me .. A lot ... I know you may not believe it because you didn't know him but one thing is for sure hurting me is the last thing he will imagine. I hurt him a lot in the past ...but he sticks with me in all the hurdles. He protects me". I didn't realize but a loan tear sheared down from my eyes. "heyy...hey..don't cry bubba! I was not doubting him, you know how important you are to me, r8?" Di panicked seeing me crying because she knows I rarely cry ...well I rarely cry in front of people. I don't like to share my pain with someone, be it family or friends. It's not like I am arrogant or something it's just I think my problems are not big enough to share and worry about. I deal with it myself on my way. So right now my crying means it's something I want to get rid of my chest. "No , Di ...i am....i am not ..crying because of that .... I am crying ...because ...its fucking hard .... It's too hard ...to love an idol. And it's even harder when he loves you that much to risk anything. I don't want that for him. I don't want him to risk his entire career just to be with me but Di ...he can do that ... I am sure of it. It .... It... It scares me a lot." As I poured my emotions in front of her I felt relaxed but not at peace. I think I need him to have my peace. Suddenly I started missing him a lot. "Aww my little one is too much in love ... But baby, it's love so it's going to be too hard for everyone. But I am glad he loves you with honesty otherwise you won't be crying over him. I know you this much. Anyways, shhh ...don't cry now ... It's my wedding in a few days so right now you just relax and enjoy it,  and I am so excited to meet your taetae. .. " and I blush ... Yes my taetae.