Dear diary || Book 2 ✓

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Dear diary,

We've been informed about jimin's death earlier. It was suicidal. They said it was about two days ago. I can't believe it's been this long and no one noticed. Everyone here feels horrible. I still can't get over the fact that Jimin is no longer here. There won't be any meaning to life anymore. He mattered, a lot. At least to me. He made me feel alive, and I loved feeling alive. Even at the time he'd ran away to Busan with inyeop, I still felt alive, because he was alive. And now that he's not, I don't feel like there's a reason for me to be. It has been just crying and denial for the past few hours. The others can't get their shit together and get over it, and I don't blame them cuz neither can I. How can I get over someone's suicide when that someone was my whole entire life? Maybe I should've said how much he mattered to me. Maybe I should've told him how happy he makes me feel. Maybe I should've been better at expressing my emotions. Maybe I shouldn't have been cold like everyone told me. Maybe then he'd still be here. But he isn't, and I'll have to cope.

-yoongi.