love to hate you.

"Please breath"

I tried to call Charles multiple times but he didn't answered.. either he was asleep or he was just ignoring me because he thinks i want to snap at him for leaving Pierre with me. I think its the first one because of the FP tomorrow but you never know.

Somehow I managed to get myself to the elevator. I had no idea where Pierres room was or where i should go now but I knew i definitely don't want to go back.

My breath goes faster then I began to shake and to sweat. All the anger and worries I have and had roll over me in a huge wave.

At this point I have to pull myself together so badly because I really don't fancy a breakdown in the elevator nor starting to cry here.

I was stucked in my own thoughts and didn't realise that someone entered the elevator.

My sigh is blurred and I can't focus on what he's saying.

Suddenly I felt someone pulling me into a tight hug. I panic at first but then I realise i've smelled this perfume before..

I look up and see that it's Daniel holding me. I keep myself together as much as possible. I see his mouth moving so I try to concentrate myself on what he's saying.

"Emilia are you okay? What happend? Hey can you here me?" he's holding my face in his hands which makes me look at him. "Breath Mil please breath.."

I didn't realised that I stopped breathing. He's breathing with me and i just concentrate myself on him. I see he's tense and worried..

The first time I met him was a few hours ago and now he's the one helping me thru this.. perfect.

"Okay I'll bring you to my room now is that okay for you?" he asks and I just nod and follow him.

Just as we entered the room he lead me to his bed and makes me sit down, before he kneels down in front of me "What happend Mil?"

I had to smile at the nickname and how caring he was but my voice was still trembling "I- I got into a fight with.. w- with Pierre and h- he said all those things and I I- what if he's right? M- Maybe I'm just a whore sleeping around.. l- lying to my b- best friends and.. and being shitty at my j- job and"

"Woah calm down... none of this is true! Why would he say this?"

I couldn't hold back my tears any longer. "because he's right.. God my life is really pathetic.. and now.. god I'm telling you a- all this when we met what? 10 hours ago.. I- I should leave.. Daniel I'm so so sorry I-"

I wanted to get up but he made me sit down again. "Fist of all you will stay here tonight. Second of all fuck Pierre because none of this is real.. I don't know what happend between you two nor do I know you really good but that doesn't give him the right to say anything about you and I know that this shit isn't true."

I break down crying even more.. I didn't expected all the kind words from Daniel especially because he's friends with Pierre but right now I'm more then thankful for Daniel.

He tells me to lay down and grabs some tissues handing them over to me. Then he joins me holding me tight while I cry..

The last time I cried this hard and had a panic attack was..

..was as I woke up to an empty bed after spending the night with my best friend..

Thank you Pierre.. as always.