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Chapter twelve

HEY PSA BEFORE THIS CHAPTER STARTS. I lnow some of the stuff in this chapter is gonna be grammaticly incorrect thats the point. Alright love yall have a great day and sit back and relax while you enjoy living though Monic. Since most of yall probably arent in a love triangle rn. Wait too soon? Probably but idec atp 😝

Dear diary

Secretly being with Axe was harder than I thought it would be you know cause Zay. Since he didn't know about the relationship he was still flirting with me and it was getting harder and harder for Axe to keep cool. So we made up a plan to tell him so he and Axe could both sleep peacefully at night. And me? Well I could try to be happy. Or I could crash their hang out and tell Axe not to tell Zay because honestly the more time I spent with Zay the more I started to doubt if I actually liked Axe. I mean don't get me wrong he's amazing and so brilliant. And if my heart would let me I'd say I love you but I couldn't. It seemed forced when I was with him but when I was with Zay it was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. It felt as though I didn't have to pretend around him. To be honest he knew more then Alex did about me and I know that it's just shameful but. I love Isaiah and no I'll never say it to him but at least I got to say it to someone.