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Chapter thirteen

"Mon Baby your moms is on the phone," aunt Pat said as she entered my room. To be honest, I hadn't talked to my mom since I had last seen her and I know that's bad but I didn't want to burden her and I knew she wouldn't want to burden me so we both kept our distance... literally.

Sighing I grabbed the phone and aunt Pat left the room.

"Yeah, mom?" I asked closing my virtual diary.

"It's so good to hear your voice sweetie and I'm so happy to tell you soon I'll be able to see your face too!" She said as excitement laced her voice. I don't know what happened but it felt like everything around me stopped. My breath was becoming shallower and my hands weaker. Don't get me wrong I love my mother but I love her way too.

"Pack your bags I already got your flight home!" She exclaimed and honestly I felt so bad because I loved her and I missed her so much and she just seemed so excited but I wanted to stay here. I knew it was coming ya know the day I'd have to go back home? But I wasn't prepared for it. In some way, you could say I was praying for her downfall. But I wasn't. I just wanted her to get better financially but I kinda wanted her to forget about me. But she didn't.

"Someone gave such a big donation I can't even wrap my head around it." Everything was still muffled. The last thing I remebered was her telling me to be at the airport by 6:10A.m that meant that I had to break up with Axe confess my love to zay and say bye to all my cousins and friends by today.

So I got to work. First I called zay he answered extremely quickly.

"Meet at our spot?" I said and he agreed.

I got ready and then headed over there myself.

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"Zay I wanted to tell you I love hanging out and talking to you and I hope one day in the future it could be us two living the dream with three kids together... I guess what I'm trying to say is... I love you and I know we were never a thing but I just fell in love with you and you don't have to respond. I just needed to get this off my chest." I told Zay as we swung on the swings.

There was silence and I mean what else would I expect?

"Um... Monić I'm in a relationship I'm surprised Lani didn't tell you." He responded after silence and I just lost it. Quickly I got up.

"Look I don't know what I was expecting but it wasn't this um I so sorry about this I know it puts you in an awkward position but I just I really couldn't keep it in any longer Um I'm leaving tomorrow and I needed to get some stuff off my chest I'm so sorry for wasting your time and I-"

As I was rambling he pulled me forward and captured my lips.

"I said I was in a relationship but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate what you told me." He said when he finished kissing me. I'd miss that. I'd miss him and everything about him. Wait he said he was in a relationship... with Lani!!!

"No no! You can't do that your in a relationship with my cousin don't kiss me." I replied trying to wipe the kiss off my lips. In some ways it hurt like hell that Lani would get into a relationship with the person she knew I liked but what was I expecting? It's Lani.

"Come on your leaving anyway no one has to know." He urged as his hand slid up and down my thigh leaving a tingling section where his hand just was. When he saw I was no longer objecting he slid his hand under my skirt. And started making circles on my inner thigh. I could've backed out but it was too late. Slowly he stood up from the swing and got on his knees in front of me. Slowly but steadily he pushed my skirt up and pulled down my panties. (Glad I shaved.) and I know this is wrong on so many levels in so many ways. We're both cheating but mine has to be worse because I'm cheating with my cousin's boyfriend.

Slowly he started licking my clit while his hands wandered up to my breast. I was surprised a moan. But then he put one finger inside me and started finger fucking me and I lost it. I moaned loudly and screamed and it just felt so good. Suddenly I got pushed off the swing into Isaiah and he bit my clit (from impact damage).

"What the actual fuck monić!" I heard a familiar voice scream.

Quickly I tried to pull down my skirt but it was too late.

"No, keep it up, let everyone see how much of a slut you are!" He screamed, making Isaiah stand up.

"It was my idea bro don't blame her." He said calmly but Axe wasn't listening to anything he said.

"What the fuck is wrong with you he is in a fucking relationship! And so are you!"!axe screamed usually I'd be angry but this was rightfully deserved.

"I didn't know-"

"But you knew you were and you still fucked him come on everyone let's have a fucking threesome!" He screamed at those poor bystanders and I felt him but children were watching and no child needed to hear that.

"ALEX CALM DOWN there are fucking kids watching this interaction do you really wanna be the reason their parents have to explain what a threesome is?" I whispered- shouted as I pulled him closer so he could hear me.

"Oh, but getting your coochie eaten out is appropriate."

Touché,

"Look Axe I forced her to I said since she was leaving tomorrow no one had to know-"

"YOU'RE LEAVING AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME?! Your boyfriend. You know what fuck this! Fuck you monić! Fuck you, Isaiah! And fuck this relationship!" Axe said before turning around and stomping away. I ran after him once I was close enough I grabbed his shoulder.

"Get your fucking hands off of me!" He screamed but I kept my hands on his shoulder until he gave in and faced me.

"Listen, I know what I did wasn't right and I know how you feel. Trust me I was put into this position too. Many times before. That doesn't make what I did any less wrong though, in fact, it makes it even more wrong. And believe I didn't cheat because I didn't like you or I didn't love you I did it because I loved him too. This secret relationship thing made me realize that. And I know it'll take some time maybe the rest of your life to forgive me but I hope that you can someday and we could become friends. I love you... as a friend and I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was moving. I was going to but never got the chance. I really am sorry and I'm so sorry this is how things have to end." I said and after I finished my speech he just sighed.

"Not only did you cheat but broke up with me too," he let out a dry chuckle.

"Listen monić I should be mad and for a second I was but then I thought about it and it was destined to happen everyone could see it except me so that's my bad we don't have to end on bad terms. We could still be friends just know I'll always love you even if you don't love me. And I'm not mad I'm hurt. But even hurt Axe will wish you well." And with that, he walked away

HEY YALL! How do yall feel about this chapter? Should Axe have forgiven her like that? What about Lani? She knew Monić has had her eye on Zay aince the jump and she gets in a relationship with him? Oh and dont forget about Zay how could he betray her trust like that? But then again she was in a relationship with Axe. Love triangle are so messy