Their Innocence✓ [UNEDITED]

Seventy Six

We sat in the woods. The only place no family were. Liam wasn't here. It was just us guys here to discuss our next steps

None of us had spoken to him since he was taken to the bedroom the other day, i mean what would we say to him

James had shared the conversation he had with him the other day with us and i dont know how I'm feeling right now

I mean...I found out one of my best friends likes me in a romantic way. Not a friend way... And for how long?

I walked around the house before running into my Nonno

"Liam! I've heard about this girlfriend of yours - when can I meet her"

He asked and i sighed before plastering on a smile

"Ill take you to her. Come on"

I helped my old man up the stairs and to the room where my sweetheart was sitting on her bed, focused intently on her phone

"Ah she's beautiful"

My Nonno told me kindly and I smiled

"She is"

I said before she looked up at us

"Liam! Are you feeling better?"

She asked, referring to when she came and slept with me and i woke up crying

That was embarrassing

I mean I should be a strong man

But all the guys are stronger. more attractive

God. And their personalities are the best

And I'm scared. So fucking scared that I ruined a good thing because I couldn't control my urges.

My urges that are wrong

Its all wrong

And now I'm facing an eruption of emotions

I don't even know what I am. Yet i thought it was okay to go and kiss Ryan and expect him to reciprocate

I never expected him to reciprocate

My body was warring with my brain

The whole group has been ignoring me for the past few days but my girl doesn't know any different

She thinks we are all still friends

But we aren't. I felt it the moment Ryan pulled away from me. I felt the shift from friends to...well. not...

I ran my hair through my dark hair as I answered our girls question

"I am thanks"

I smiled sadly and she nodded before greeting my Nonno

I need to speak to London

I'm going to read for a bit first

"I'm going to the library"

I announced before leaving the room and heading to the car

London stayed at a hotel last night and I can understand that

I headed to the hotel she was at and sighed as i walked in. It just started snowing

I hate the snow

I hate everything

I fucked up so badly

I headed up to the room i knew London was staying in and knocked. The door opened and she invited me in.

Aisley was at the hotels gym meaning London was alone

"Liam? I didn't expect you here. Is everything okay?"

She asked as she made me a cup of tea

"No"

I mumbled to her

"What's wrong"

"I kissed your brother"

I sighed

"I know it was wrong but I couldn't help it. And now none of the guys are talking to me. I cant lose them- I can't London"

I said helplessly

"You kissed Ryan?"

She repeated

"Yes"

"Well I didn't see that coming"

She mumbled

"They're ignoring you?"

"Yea. I admitted my feelings towards all of them to James and since then they all haven't spoken to me. Every time i enter a room they leave. Its awful"

I let my feelings out and she surprisingly pulled me into a hug

"That's awful. Im so sorry. What about Trinette"

She asked and i shook my head

"She doesn't know about the kiss"

I told lonnie and she nodded as if she was working something out

"London?"

I asked after a few minutes of silence

"Look. I don't know what I am. I'm confused and hurt London..I'm not used to voicing my thoughts or feelings. I still love Trinette. But the way she loves all of us guys is the same way i feel"

I tried to explain and she nodded

"So you like all of them romantically"

"Yes."

I answered. That was about the only thing I knew for certain right now

"And they dont like you back"

She repeated what I had said in different words

"Yes."

I said

"Those fucke- I'm going to call them. Okay?"

She asked and i nodded

Fuck i really hope she can sort this out

My phone rang as she was on the phone yelling at Ryan in italian

"Sweetheart?"

I asked when her sweet voice said hello

"Where are you?"

She asked me softly

"London's Hotel. Ill be back home soon- is everything okay?"

I asked, listening to the tone in her voice and worrying a little

"I can't find any of the guys and the families keep questioning me"

She said to me and I nodded

"Ill be there soon. Go to my room and lock the door if you need"

I instructed before we said goodbye and hung up

London was still on the phone cussing her brother and his friends out before she looked at me. I signalled that i had to go and headed off home

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Posted: 16.12.2022