Transformers (mostly Soundwave) Oneshots

I'm sorry, don't leave me (TFP Soundwave x Defected reader)

You were once a Decepticon but were never treated the best. You snapped and switched sides but someone misses you.

Requested by darkfondness :)

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Why did I even join in the first place?

That was a question that ran through my mind most of the time I spent as a Decepticon. Sure I'd been close friends with Megatron before the war but...

He was never the same after it started.

I mean, I believed his cause at first. It sounds noble right? Fighting all for the chance at everyone being treated like equals. Fighting for a world without suffering. Fighting for peace?

How did it turn to conquering  the universe and eradicating anyone who stood in the way?

I sighed and hopped off my berth, my face mask automatically sliding up like it usually did when I prepared to face another day. I reached for the door but stopped and looked down at the orange symbol, displayed proudly on my chassis for everyone to see.

At least that's what I think it was supposed to feel like. I just sighed and walked out.

Joining the Autobots was one of the best yet hardest decisions I'd ever made. I never had a high rank, despite being close to Megatron himself, but I was still quite reserved and all that lead me to was constantly be pushed around by vehicons as well as endless coerce from Starscream.

Let's just say, switching sides had been long overdue for me. I left a life of torment and suffering behind me, becoming a bot who played video games against the human kids and Bumblebee, helped Ratchet fix his computers, trained with Arcee, played Lob ball with Jackie and Bulkhead, and doing my best to make Optimus never regret his decision to accept me.

Only thing that made me feel guilty was I left someone even closer than Megatron behind as well.

Soundwave was the only one who was always there for me, ever since the leader of the cons and I grew ever more distant. Being the best partner, he'd always help me finish work, comfort me through my breakdowns and even go after the vehicons if they hurt me. It did unfortunately, lead me to wearing my face mask 24/7.

But in the end, I still left. The twang of guilt still stayed with me every time I thought about him. I'd just up and disappeared one day, leaving nothing more than a note on his berth for him to find, explaining my departure and a small apology. 

He probably hated me by now.

I never saw him in battle though, knowing he was more of a behind-the-scenes kinda mech.

"Hey, Y/n!" Someone called, breaking me from my thoughts. 

I looked over to the human area where a small boy with wild brown hair and glasses beamed at me and waved me over. The one with black hair next to him smiled as well. Seeing Raf and Jack always brightened my day, even if for just a bit.

I waved to Miko who was showing Bulkhead a song on her guitar and nodded to Ratchet who was typing away at his computer before going over to where the boys were sitting. Bumblebee was already crouched down there.

"Sup?" I said, sitting cross-legged next to him. 

"Jack managed to get the new racing game I told you about!" The boy said, excitement emanating from him. 

"Really?" I gasped, leaning forward in anticipation and forgetting what I'd just been brooding on.

"Best thing yet," Bumblee beeped next to me, "It's four-player. Two verses two."