i dont think you even realize how much i need you in my life and i know that in less than 4 years i wont be able to hav you in my life. i need your approval and attention all the time but im not a good enough student for your praise. i wish i could be better and i wish i didnt need your approval so bad that i would fucking kill someone for a 'good job' i wish i could be more normal and im sorry im not better
i will be a better student for you, and thank you so much for the accomidations, i dont know why my brain works this way or why sitting on the floor stops a panic attack but thank you, i know you think im lying or that im crazy but sometimes i need these things
thank you, im sorry
