*yes that's my eye (pic on side). Yes I know my eyebrows are not on fleek k so doNT POint OUT MY flAWs*
Okay so I've never told anyone why I truly made a wattpad account and how the whole thing started. Not even my besties (squad) or stunning girlfriend (even though she's also my best friend. Putting it out there) knows. Idk it's not really a secret. I've just never spoke about it.
Before I begin. Thank ookilamzen because thanks to her you are currently reading a legend's masterpiece *dramatically flips hair* what do I mean by that? Read and find out
Bruh
ALRIGHT SO IT ALL STARTED IN THE SUMMER Of when my 7th grade year ended. 2013. I was a huge 1D fan back then. And I found out about the whole "Larry stylinson" shizz.
Btw are you a Larry shipper?
Anywho, and I was like woah k shipping people into a homosexual fiction relationship is a thing. And at the time (still fucking am for life) I was a huge mixer. So I thought aye, do they do this for girls too?!?!
And keep this in mind at the time I was confused about my sexuality. I was determining if whether or not I was gay.
Turns out I'm not
Note the sarcasm.
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So yeah I looked up gay couples little mix on Google images and this one pic came out and it was 6 pics of the 6 sismance thing for little mix and i picked the one I thought looked the cutest together. And it was JERRIE!!!!
Looked up on google, "Jerrie little mix fanfion" and this one website came up and that was the first legit fanfic I've ever read before i think it's adorable. https://m.fanfiction.net/s/8740097/1/Jerrie-story-episode-1-Hya just in case you wanna read it too
So yeah I read that. And then I discovered wattpad. The first stories I read without an account made YET was Someone to love and the sequel and the big secret. Loved it. Found "Too Late Now" by ookilamzen and I thought OMG I need to make an account and tell this chicka how much I'm loving her story and her in general. At the time she was in the process of writing it. So I did but I wasn't mixerssalute1 and I had a different account. Messaged her. Spammed her
Started writing stories on there. I'd like to keep that other account on the down low so I won't be revealing the name of it. But yeah
That happened.
There's girl #1 and girl #2 k so keep that in mind. You know who you are.
At the time girl 1 and I became really close. We started flirting a lot and liked each other a lot. So I was like okay maybe I'm pan or bi. But I didn't care kept talking to her. Then she asked me to be hers and I said no cause I wasn't sure of who I was yet. So said no
Wattpad started getting me distracted from my grades. Started dropping. Logged off for months. This was like in December of 2013.
Then February of 2014 I created this badass account and read a story on here. That's where I met girl 2. Messaged her as well. Talked a bit. And at the time I didn't like her (as a crush) so yeah And then I messaged girl 2 saying I was back. Flirting continued. Then finally it was over for good.
March I met lxshtonfalls AYE
so yeah and at the time I was writing yms and I did long ass authors Notes and just talked so I thought why not write a fangurl book.
Okay so then it was summer. I started falling for girl 2. More than I should've but ya can't control love now can ya? If you were to tell me that I was in love with her then I'd say you're insane cause honestly I didn't know what it felt like. I just thought I had a huge crush on her. And as time passed by, my books became "popular" I guess. Getting spammed everyday with votes and comments and PMs from my children. THANK YOU BTW LOVE YOU
And in my early experience with wattpad I met gay people which thanks to them convinced me that it's okay to be gay and made me more accepting of myself and more comfortable with my sexuality cause where I live, it's somewhat common. Eh. Kinda. Straight people dominate the population though.
Summer. Told friends and attempted to tell family I was gay. Friends still love me.
Yayayyyhh
And then I started falling more and more with girl 2
Btw August I met JerrieXJadesy AYE
Thing is with girl 2, she kept hurting me emotionally. And I remember thinking okay Imma stay back but I honestly couldn't. It was like I was magnet and she was a refrigerator. I just kept getting back into her spell. She said she liked me too but we just never got together. Well I asked but didn't get the answer I was hoping for at the time but anyways yeah
Btw November 14,2014 at 8:37pm i got a message from my lil butthead Littlemixlover1996 which is now my everything.
So keep that in mind.
Then in December I just broke down. Like all my self harm thoughts negativity everything was just horrible. I'd literally cry everyday. And on top of that I found out girl 2 wasn't exactly honest with me. She didn't want me 😔 lies but whatever. Past now
Don't get my wrong. I love girl 2 just not in the way how I use to. We still talk. Now that I'm with Leena I understand what love feels like so the other day I was thinking about this whole journey and I think. Hm I think I was possibly in love with her. First love I guess. I really don't know. But Leena made me forget about her. Leena is my butthead I mentioned who I met in November btw.
Only difference that my love for Leena is literally an infinitive times stronger. I unmagnified myself from girl 2 the fridge and attached myself to Leena and found a new fridge and its gonna stay like that. 5ever
So yeah that's my story. Tbh i dunno where I'd be without wattpad. It helped me so much. Without it I possibly wouldn't have figured out the person I am today. It taught me to love myself and that it's okay to be different and weird. Normal people scare me😉
