..And that's the tea! with Alex

depressey little rant

Do you ever think about the things you've done and regretted the shit out of it?

 I did something 3 years ago and I completely ruined a friendship, and I hate it because we were supposed to go to high school together and we made all these plans to be friends forever. But instead we went to different schools and never talked again.

I still think about them, the way we used to laugh together, that one cafe we used to always go to after school, all the stupid things we did together, we were dumb kids, but the stupid is what made us closer.

 I just felt so close to them, we were best friends for 5 years, and then one day, we just weren't anymore, and it was my fault and I couldn't do anything to fix it this time.

 I cant do the things we used to do without them, even now. I had to find a new cafe to go to because after the falling out, just going in that cafe made me feel queasy. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss them or regret what happened. 

But I also can't hate it too much 

Because if none of that ever happened, I wouldn't be where I am right now, 

And my life right now is pretty damn good

I just wish they were still a part of it.