Teardrops

PROLOGUE

DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

Please bear with me because this is my first time writing a story. Typos and grammatical errors are expected.

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I'm in the midst of the crowd. Flashes of the cameras. Reporters gathered around asking tons of questions. People cheering for me to say yes. And of course, the man infront of me. He is bending his one knees while showing me a diamond ring that reflects the tears in my eyes.

My mind can't process what is happening right now.

What's all of this for?

I thought this is already settled?

I can't marry him.

His my best friend. The second man I trusted. The man who choose to always stay with me through my darkest times. The man I love. But why does this feels so wrong? I should be happy right? No other women can call him he'rs because he'll be mine if I say yes. But why? I've decided. I don't want this. He don't want this. He loves someone. Someone who is more mature than me. Someone who is more capable of loving him. Someone who is more deserving than me. Because the man that I love deserves a woman that is willing to give him the happiness that he deserves.

It hurts me seeing him like this. He don't want this. Napipilitan lang siya na gawin ito. Why does he always have to sacrifice everything to me. At bakit ba palaging ako ang dahilan kung bakit hindi siya masaya? Bakit ba ako palagi ang dahilan kung bakit siya nagdudusa? Fuck this!

"S-stand up please. Don't do this." I said while crying. He smile at me. Assuring me that everything will be okay.

"I'm fine just say yes."

"No.. please you're hurting yourself." I said wiping my tears away.

"Hindi iyan ang gusto ko'ng marinig. I want your sweetest 'yes' baby." Stop with the act please.

Yes, I love him. I love him so much that I can't take advantage of him because of our situation right now. I can't marry him because I need him. Hindi ito ang pangarap ko eh. Sabi ko, if God will give me the chance to marry this man, I will marry him because I love him not because I need him. This so unfair for him. Sana hindi ko nalang siya minahal kung ito ang kapalit. His happiness, yan ang kapalit. So cruel. This world is so cruel for him. He don't deserve this. I don't deserve him.

Kinuha ko ang kamay niya at hinila siya para tumayo siya. I close the box na pinaglagyam niya ng singsing. "Don't do this because I love you. Do this if you really love me, hindi iyong napipilitan ka lang. I know you already have someone in your heart but know that i will always wait for you even if it means eternity."

"Goodbye my love, I'll keep my distance from now on. But I will still watch you from afar, just like the moon." Hinaplos ko ang kanyang pisngi na may pag-aalinlangan sa aking mga mata, dahil hindi ko alam kung kaya ko bang mabuhay ng wala siya.

"A-adella..."

I turn my back against him and run away.

And just like that i left the only person who believed in me that it would be possible for me to recover from this weak heart of mine.