Obsession (BxB)[completed]

Part 1

"You shouldn't always tolerate all of these hard things alone, You can lean on me... Let me help you, Myung. "...

At that time, when Haru said that to me, My mind was in a deep dark situation where I couldn't see or do anything, I was completely paralyzed, crouching on the floor and isolating myself from the real world and people...
As he approached his hand to me, like a light of hope in that pitch darkness, I was too desperate to catch it that without thinking afar, I grasped his hand...
I truly needed someone to rely on...
However, if I hadn't accepted your help at that time, would things have been different?...
If I just hadn't fallen in love with you, would I have been less broken than I am now?...
I wish I had stayed nothing more than a friend to you...

~

Kim Haru, a boy who transferred to my school when we were in eighth grade.
He was an extrovert, bright, and lively person who got people's attention wherever he was.
He had an attractive appearance, tall with an ideal bodyline, a handsome face with upturned almond-shaped brown eyes and long eyebrows, heavy upper lips, and wavy light brown hair.
Haru was 180 degrees different from me, so I'd never imagined we could ever become friends...

After entering our class, he started by brightly introducing himself, smiling ear to ear, "Nice to meet you all, I'm Kim Haru!" After he had finished, he sat down on the front row like a nerdy student.
My seat was at the back of the class next to the window to avoid teachers as much as possible...
I was amazed by his confidence. I couldn't imagine introducing myself in front of a bunch of strangers... That could be my nightmare!...

In my whole school days, I've only had a few friends since I was an introvert with a lack of social skills. I prefer to be alone in his own world and thoughts instead of getting engaged with people...
People who are strangers, crowded places, and light topics always make me uncomfortable.
So naturally, I avoid guys like Haru, who would attract so much attention unintentionally.
It had been just a few days. However, Haru became friends with not only our classmates but almost half of the school. He got to know everyone quickly.

~

One week later, it was our lunch break that I took out my lunch and placed it on my table to eat while everyone was leaving the class.
Haru sat down towards me in my front seat and asked curiously, "You bring your lunch from home?..."
I nodded silently.

-"Woah!... So well organised! You even laid a handkerchief on the table!..."

+"well, I can't get the table dirty..."

I started eating while he was staring at me with his puppy-like eyes, which made me really uncomfortable. So I asked, "Why are you still here? Don't you go to the cafeteria?..."
He replied shyly, "Ah~... I forgot to bring money today~..."
I paused as I heard his answer, " I~... Don't have extra spoon~... unless, you~..."
He snatched my spoon out of my hand and grabbed a bite. "It's okay~... We can share it~... What's your name, by the way?..."
I stared at him blandly without answering him as I was shocked.
When he noticed my silence while still munching, he said panicky, "Don't tell me you have some kind of OCD?!... What should I do?!"

+"It's okay. You can eat!... I'm not that hungry anyway. "

-"Sorry~... Thanks for the meal~..."

He pulled my lunchbox towards himself and continued eating hastily. I opened my chocomilk and took a sip while thinking, "why should two strangers share a spoon..."
When he was done, he let out a breath and said, "You saved me!..." then leaned forward and continued, "So, won't you tell me your name?..."
+"Ah~...Myung, Park Myung~..." answered frustratingly...

-"Bond, James Bond..."

I glared at him, "What's with the dad's joke!..."
He laughed and pinched my cheeks, "Haha~... Why are you so stiff!... Smile!..."
I grabbed his wrists, "Let me go!..."
"Your cheeks are really soft!...", He said as he was still playing with my face, then he glanced at my hands and grasped them, "You have finger dimples like babies!... So cute!..."
I was totally panicked by his sudden attack, so I sprang to my feet, "I've gotta go to the bathroom~..."
I left the class immediately while my heart was trying to get out of my chest...