Obsession (BxB)[completed]

Part 20

After Lee Sora entered Haru's room, I followed her and handed over the documents to her, and then I prepared some coffee and water for her and Haru...

As I placed them on the table, she threw water at my face. I was shocked and stood there frozen as I watched the water drip from my face. I felt humiliated and embarrassed...

She started yelling at me, saying, "Do you know what responsibility is?!... I told you I wanted you to be committed to your position, but you've never done your job well... as his secretary, how could you let him get too drunk... plus getting drunk with him?!... And overslept!!!... At this hour, you're coming to work?... Answer me!..."...

I felt anger rising in me more and more... but the only reason I held myself back then was because of Haru. I didn't want to cause trouble for him, so I kept lowering my head and apologized to her while she insulted me continuously...

As Haru didn't say a word or stop her from yelling at me, I took a glance at him and saw he was smirking in silence. That was the moment when I realized he was enjoying seeing me humiliated...
I felt deeply betrayed, the anger mixed with Sorrow...

When she finished, Haru said, "You can leave, Mr. Park..."...

During the years we've been together, this was the first time that he called me by my last name. I was taken aback by the sudden formality and could feel my heart sink. I felt a sudden distance between us and knew that something had changed. I nodded and left without saying a word while I was in huge shock at what just had happened.

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His eyes were as cold as ice... As if he was someone else... A stranger that I don't know him...

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I rushed to the bathroom immediately and tried to catch my breath. I whipped off the water on my face and started to breathe deeply... As I heard a notification on my phone again, I took it out of my pocket and looked at my phone... the recent notification was a spam text and also some texts and missed calls from Taemin... But I suddenly realised that Haru had sent me a text about an hour ago while I was working...

I opened the message and found this:

"I'm so tired of you acting like a child, always throwing a tantrum at dumb things...
I guess I spoiled you so much that you have become greedy... you always expect me to be the one who takes the first step and approaches you whenever you get sulked.
Don't delude yourself that I will always like and pamper you...
From now on, I won't be like that...
I don't want to see you anymore...
We're done...
Goodbye, Mr. Park..."...

All kinds of emotions rushed into me suddenly...
My hands were trembling, and my vision was blurry... My heart was pounding, and I couldn't breathe normally... I felt like there was something stuck in my throat... My tears welled down on my cheeks, and I kept whipping them while talking to myself that this isn't the right time to cry... you shouldn't cry, Myung... hold it back... hold it back...

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I got out of the bathroom and returned to my desk. When the door of Haru's office had opened and I saw them smiling brightly, a sudden rage came to me...

I felt my blood boiling and my fists clenched...
And that was when I lost control, not being able to hold myself back.

I slapped Haru out of the rage that was boiling within me. I felt the sting and tremor in my hands due to that slap.
He stood there unfazed, avoiding my gaze... Lee Sora grabbed my arm fiercely and said in shock, "What the hell are you doing?!..."

As my tears flowed nonstop, I said, "I'll resign from today on..."...

Without looking back, I turned my back on them and grabbed my things, and headed out of the office...
She kept calling me but I didn't listen anymore....
While I ran down the street, I was crying my eyes out...

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I was heartbroken...
I felt unfair...
I was enduring so many things because of you...
There were so many stresses...

Getting humiliated by the people around you countless times...
Heavy looks at me whenever I work...

Trapping me at your place when you even weren't there and wouldn't let me go...
Waiting for you in an empty space most of the time...

Put up with all of your flaws...

My parents' nags...

and I fucking didn't say a word to you!!!...

Now, you're telling me you were the one who gave in to me?!...

I suddenly recalled the time we were in high-school and he suddenly gave me a cold shoulder...

I kept repeating, "He did it again... he promised me then he wouldn't do it ever again... but he did it again... I'm stupid that I believed him... I~... I~"...

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I stopped in the middle of the sidewalk as my emotions rushed into me...

I was dazed and my heart throbbed as it was shattering into pieces... I looked back anxiously to see if Haru had followed me or not... But I couldn't find a trace of him there...

I unconsciously called his name repeatedly, "Haru?... (sob)... Haruuu?!... (hic)... Ha~..."

I thought, "What did I expect, stupidly?~~... He won't come to look for me~... He said~... Doesn't want me anymore~... I~... don't want to be separated from him~... I~..."

This was the hardest moment for me when I finally realised my own feelings after it had ended... "I like him... I like Haru~~..."

It was more than just a friend...
I've liked him this whole time...
But it's late, too late to fix it...
He hates me...
He doesn't need me anymore...
He doesn't want me...

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My heart was crumbling painfully, my voice wasn't coming out, and I ran out of breath.
I felt like something was pressing on my chest‌.

I crouched down on the floor as I got dizzy and started panting hardly...
I was getting a panic attack...

People were gathering around me, asking me what was wrong...
But I couldn't talk, and their presence made me more panicked...
My whole body was filled with anxiety...

I was looking for his face between them...
I wished that Haru had followed me...

I took out my phone and called him while my hand was trembling unconsciously...
Although he never picked up...

Someone grabbed my arms, helped me to get up, and sat at the bus-station seats...

Another person gave me a bottle of water and said,"Try to count 10 to 1... you will calm down... follow my count! ... 10... 9... "...

By getting focused on her voice and counting slowly, I was able to breathe again...

At that moment, as my phone rang, I took a glance, and it was Taemin,"Why don't you answer your phone since last night?..."

While I was still sobbing, I said, "... Taemin~... I~... What should... I~... Do~?..."

-"What's wrong? Are you crying?!..."

+"My chest is in pain~... Haru~... Haru~..."

I wasn't able to finish my sentence as I was sobbing uncontrollably...

-"Where are you right now?!... I'm going to pick you up..."...

+"Near~... My work~... ah~~... bus station..."

-"Just stay... I'll be there in 15 minutes!!!..."