When the Wingman Falls | Darlentina / JaneNella

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Jane's POV

After what Maxine said yesterday, I just stay in our room and never bother to enjoy this celebration.

Tangina...

Alam ko namang wala na talaga akong pag-asa kay Maxine pero these past few days kasi, bakit nararamdaman ko na may feelings din siya sa'kin?

Bakit dama ko na she also reciprocates the feelings I have to her?

Ako naman 'tong si gago na nagpatuloy at nag-efforts pa rin.

Ngayon, anong nangyari?

"You deserve it, asshole ka kasi." See? I am getting crazy, talking to myself again.

I just drank another beer to forget this pain I felt.

"Florence..." That voice, siya ang rason bakit nararamdaman ko lahat 'to.

She knocked a few times...

Kahit kumatok ka pa diyan nang ilang beses, hindi kita lalabasin.

Why the heck should I opened the door? Mas masasaktan lang ako kapag nakita kita.

"Joshua told me that you didn't eat anything today; so here's a tray full of foods. Kain ka na please." Actually, all I wanted is to be wasted to escape this situation kaya uminom lang ako nang uminom mula kaninang umaga.

I just heard her footsteps, maybe she already left, so I continued watching any movie I saw and drinking my beer.

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"Mom..." I know na medyo na tinatamaan na ako ngayon because of alcohol, but why it is unfair?

The pain never goes away, mas sumakit pa nga ata.

Because of that, I called my mother. I mean, Joshua's mother who adopted me.

"Hey, anak? What's the matter?"

"Ansakit po, ansakit-sakit."

"Ng ano? Are you drunk, Jane?"

"Why is it always happening to me? Why should I always be the one who needs to sacrifice?" And with that, mom knew the issue already.

Well, I never hide anything from my parents, even this situation I am torned in. I am just thankful that they understand me.

"Jane, anak, what do you want me to do?" This time, I heard dad's voice.

"Gusto ko lang po na mawala 'yong sakit, napapagod na ako."

"Anak... The bad thing about pain is it cannot be healed quickly. Hindi pwedeng pag gusto mo itong mawala, mawawala na rin agad... Pero, pain can potentially fade with time.

I know it's very unfair for you kasi ikaw lagi ang nagpapaubaya, you always look for Joshua's welfare first...

Pero sana this time, unahin mo muna sarili mo.

Before pa namin gusto na maghiwalay muna kayo ni Johua but ayaw mo naman na mag-aral siya sa ibang bansa.

Kaso iba na ngayon... You already suffered a lot.

If you want, we have a house in California, you can continue your College life there. Our relatives are also there to guide you." Mas umiyak lang ako sa mahabang litanya ni dad.

"Please anak, follow our suggestion now. We don't want you to suffer anymore, as well as your mental health. Don't worry, we will visit you frequently." Mom added.