I got home from the studio tired. Like really tired. A full day of recording can do that to you believe it or not. I sat down and thought about what the fuck I'm doing with life. Why am I like this? I have a veryyy stable job, friends who care about me, cats. Just cats. I'm perfectly fine. I'm just better being alone. Alright maybe I wanted to love and to hold someone but I didn't need that. Meredith's was there. But I needed something real.
I grabbed my phone. Hands shaking I can't really explain it as I typed in "best dating apps" on my phone. Tinder came up. Obviously. Grindr. That was a shock. But there was a new one. It looked new to me anyway. I downloaded it. My breathing shallowed. Screw it. I jumped up and put a pop tart in the toaster as I set up my profile. Nils Stoberg - 33 year old woman from Norway looking for love. Of course I was lying. No one would believe me otherwise. I quickly took a picture with Benjamin sat underneath my chin. Snap. I saved it as I bit into the pop tart from earlier. Damn those things are nice.
I wiped the crumbs from my lap as I got up to put the plate away as I heard a ping coming from my phone. I dashed to it, needing to see what anyone could have said. Nope. Mum asking if I was alright. Slumping back into the sofa annoyed. I shouldn't be thinking like that already. Does the app even work? I glanced back at my phone seeing the words
"You have a new message"
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