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chapter 38: fawn's music

quick note that the song attached is how i imagine fawn's singing voice to kind of sound like lol.

chapter 38: fawn's music

~fawn~

       The annual music festival in Port Orthos is something I love attending every year. When I was younger, I would Aunt Cecelia and Uncle Winston for the weekend to attend the festival, but it unfortunately stopped after I got married since, you know, Quentin didn't like me living my life.

       And now, I not only live in Port Orthos so I can easily attend the music festival, but I perform a few songs in it too. I absolutely love music and even though I'm not going to pursue it as a career, I'd take every opportunity I get to perform for people.

       Marius and I get to the festival quite early since there is more than just performances happening. There are a bunch of food vendors, a few games, even a photo booth. Just a bunch of different things to keep everyone entertained during the music festival.

       It's nice spending time with Marius. I mean, I'm constantly spending time with him, but each time is as special. I already know I'm very much in love with him, but spending more time with him just makes me realize exactly how much in love I am.

       I'm just so happy to have Marius in my life. Maybe I should thank Robbie for causing Marius's car to break down, otherwise I may not have met him at all.

       Marius and I are currently watching one of the performances together when my cell phone buzzes in my pocket. I pull it out, seeing a text message from Mary-Anne.

       Mary-Anne: Just a heads up, I saw Mom and Dad here. Madison and Bernie were with them, so maybe Travis is here too. Not sure.

       I sigh, sending her a text message to thank her for the heads up. I don't know if they'll try to talk to me, but I'm definitely not willing to talk to them if they want to. They're still in contact with Quentin, and that hurts. They were willing to hear him out when they found out what he did to me, but they were so quick to cut me off when they thought I hurt Quentin.

       I always had the sneaking suspicion that my parents like Quentin more than me, even though I am their son. He was born after his parents, my parents best friend, suffered from three miscarriages and was told that they might never carry a baby to full term. But there he is, a miracle baby. One that's able to get away with everything.

       It really didn't help that Quentin is a year older than me so by the time I was born, everyone's focus was on that miracle baby and not me. A messed up situation, but family's aren't always perfect. There are messed up families everywhere.

       "Everything okay?" Marius asks, having noticed my sigh.

       "Maybe," I say. "Mary-Anne texted me to tell me that my parents are here. Madison and Bernie are with them, so Travis might be here too. At least this place is a bit crowded so maybe it will be easy to avoid them. That's only if they try to contact me." They didn't make any effort to try to talk to me at Madison's birthday party, so it won't be surprising if they don't try to talk to me here.

       Thankfully, it really is a bit too crowded to spot my parents. I don't even try to find them. I try my best to ignore them and just enjoy the time I'm spending with my boyfriend.

       Late in the afternoon, it's soon time for my performances, so Marius and I head backstage so I can make sure I'm all ready. There's still a few more minutes before my performance, so Marius decides to kiss me a few times. He always takes whatever opportunity he can to kiss me. I'm not complaining about it.

       I do have to push him away when I have to get on stage, so Marius kisses me one more time before telling me he'll be at the very front to cheer me on.

       He leaves the backstage area to go back to the crowd and sure enough, he is right in the front when I get onto the stage. The crowd cheers when I get onto the stage, which makes me feel very happy that a lot of people like to see me perform. It feels nice to be able to share my talent with the town of Port Orthos.

       I get completely lost in the music and the performance, just enjoying the song and the people dancing along in the crowd. I end up taking a glance at Marius, seeing him smiling and slightly dancing as he watches me perform. And his support is honestly all I need.

       I only sing three songs for the music festival, which goes by too fast in my opinion. I would absolutely love to sing more, but I know there are more performances and the singing competition that needs to happen. The last thing I want to do is take up someone else's time.

       I go backstage and return the microphone and the earpiece before going back to the crowd. Marius is still where he was while I was performing. When he sees me, he smiles before pulling me in for a kiss, then a hug. "That was amazing, Fawn," he says. "You are so talented."

       I can't help but smile as I hug Marius back. "Thank you. It felt good to perform. Even though I love the open mic nights at the cafe, it's nice to be up on stage like that."

       "You should definitely do that more," Marius says.

       "Oh, if I get the opportunity to, I definitely will," I say.

       "Fawn," a voice behind me says. 

       I turn around and see my parents standing there. Madison and Bernie are no longer with them, so I assume that Travis really is here as well and they're now with him. 

       "You were great," Dad says. "I'm glad to see that you're still singing."

       I don't reply to them. I don't know what to say, if I even want to say something at all.

       "Can we talk to you?" Dad asks. "Alone?"

       I don't even want to talk to them without Marius present since Marius keeps me calm, but I probably won't talk to them at all. I just have to ask them one question and if they answer it the way I think they will, then I'm going to just walk away. "That depends. Are you still in contact with Quentin?"

       Mom and Dad look at each other, and their hesitance to answer is the answer I need. They do look back at me and Mom says, "It's complicated."

       "Complicated?" I ask. "How is cutting him off for abusing me, cheating on me, and lying about it complicated? I'm your son. He's not. Why aren't you on my side?"

       "He's been through a lot," Dad says.

       "That's complete and utter bullshit," I say.

       "Hey," Dad says sternly. "Don't talk to us with that language. We're your parents."

       "Are you really?" I ask. Hearing them in their insane way of try to justify Quentin's actions makes me not want to listen to them anymore, though I didn't even want to in the first place. I grab Marius's hand and pull him away from my parents.

       "Are you okay?" Marius asks once we're no longer in earshot of my parents.

       I sigh. "I don't even know. I knew this was going to happen if I let them try to talk to me, but I didn't even want to hear it. Forget it. It's whatever."

       Marius rests his hand on my arm and gives it a gentle rub. "I'm sorry that they're being assholes. Also, sorry for calling your parents assholes."

       I smile softly. "It's okay. Really. I don't need them in my life. I'm content with how my life is now, especially because I have you in it. I love you, Marius."

       Marius smiles back and rests his forehead on mine. "I love you too," he says before giving me a gentle kiss.

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idk what's up with me and getting so distracted while writing lately. i've been finishing these chapters later than usual :(

but anyway marius is obsessed with kissing fawn lol. he takes every moment he can get to kiss fawn.