Sapphire Blake is a girl who has been given a bad hand that isn't for the weak, and it only gets worse. She is a single mother, having to deal with her parents mistakes. People are coming after for what her father and mother have done, in the past...
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I lay in the hospital bed staring at the ceiling. I'm listening to the heart machine beeping, I know he is alive. That is all I care about. I have a full bed. Silver and Gray on each side as Emerald is asleep on my chest. I sent everyone home to rest, Psycho and Will refused to leave, but I knew that would happen. They are asleep on the couch closest to my bed. I turn my head and look over at a sleeping Jax. It feels like forever ago when it was me laying in that bed with a hole in my stomach. I told him I would get paid back.
The calmness in the room isn't doing anything for my anxiety. It feels like even though I know this shit is over, it doesn't feel right. All my demons and my personal devil is gone, but I don't feel peace. Tears run out of my eyes as I silently cry. I bite my lip so my whimpers are not heard in the silence.
I have my children in the bed with me and the love of my life in the hospital bed next to me, but I still don't feel peace. Maybe it will take more than defeating the devil and his demons to make my heart feel peaceful. I know only time will tell, but right now I crave peace.
I fought my dad's battle, I got his killer, and I did what he did not do. My father was a good man, but he was blinded by love for a woman who used him. He let them kill him, and left me alone in this life. I don't blame him, I blame who pulled the trigger, but I feel like he could have done more. Why leave it up to me?
My mother is a horrible person, who brought this bullshit in my life. God I hope she rots where she is. She will always be my mother but I can't feel any empathy for her. I haven't been able to for a long time. She chose to be greedy and heartless. How could I feel anything for her?
How does one live in peace after something like this?
Fuck, I need Jax he is usually the one who can understand and give me the advice i need to understand life. He makes my anxiety go away. I sigh softly. I pull myself up carefully not to wake my boys and not to kill myself. Once I am able to get up my feet touch the cold tile floor and I walk over to Jax's bed. I hold Emerald close to me as I walk up to him. I sat on his bed and let out a soft groan. I fix myself so I can lay on the bed comfortably. I make sure not to hurt him, not to wake emerald, and not to hurt myself. I lay my head on his shoulder and sigh. Being next to him brings peace to my mind.
I turn my head so I can continue to look at him. After staring at him and listening to his heart monitor beat at a normal rhythm. I finally feel myself being pulled into sleep.
