Billy loomis x stu macher || one-shots || book four

Now you're in the stars and six feet never felt so far

Inspired by the song called - in the stars - by Benson Boone
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"Sunday mornings were your favorite
I used to meet you down on Woods Creek Road
You did your hair up like you were famous
Even though it's only church where we were goin'"
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Billy remembers how much stu likes Sunday mornings he would wake up early and head over to the loomis house.

He would try and wake Billy up, but Billy would only groan and shoo him away, telling him to let him sleep,

Stu would chuckle and say, "Okay, I'll start making breakfast," he gave Billy a quick kiss before walking of out of his room, and downstairs into the kicthen to make breakfast for him and Billy,

Billy never understood how stu could be up so early in a Sunday morning. He once asked him, and stu replied ," it's another day that I get to spend with you,"

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"Now, Sunday mornings, I just sleep in
It's like I buried my faith with you
I'm screamin' at a God, I don't know if I believe in
'Cause I don't know what else I can do"
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Billy laid in bed, he wasn't sleeping just staring at the door waiting for stu to walk in with his usual smile and try to wake him up only for him to shoo him away and tell him to let him sleep or pull him into bed with him and hold him in his arm and never let him go..

He wished that he never left him go.

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"I'm still holdin' on to everything that's dead and gone
I don't wanna say goodbye, 'cause this one means forever
Now you're in the stars and six-feet's never felt so far
Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers"

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Billy keeps remembering the day. They told him that stu was gone. It was like a on repeat,  repeating over and over again

It was an accident, they said. The driver was drunk and skidded into the sidewalk.

It was on a Sunday morning, and Billy hates Sundays now.

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"Oh, it hurts so hard
For a million different reasons
You took the best of my heart
And left the rest in pieces"
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Billy isolated himself in his room, He didn't come out for weeks. He only went out for the funeral, and he just locked himself in his room again after it ended ,

His family and friends tried to get him to do something or at least talk to them, but the only person he wanted was stu

But he's gone now, and he took Billy with him, leaving only an empty shell behind.

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"Diggin' through your old birthday letters
A crumpled 20 still in the box
I don't think that I could ever find a way to spend it
Even if it's the last 20 that I've got, oh"
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It was stu's birthday, and Billy went to stu's grave , with a cupcake with a candle on it, and a wrapped box

He quietly sung him happy birthday before blowing out the candle for him and opening his gift for him ,

He didn't last long until he burst into tears,

His first birthdays were the hardest, but it never really got easier.

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"I'm still holdin' on to everything that's dead and gone
I don't wanna say goodbye, 'cause this one means forever
Now you're in the stars and six-feet's never felt so far
Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers"
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Billy's parents told him to stop visiting stu. It wasn't healthy, but Billy ignored them,

He didn't want stu to be alone, but the truth is ,

He wasn't ready to say goodbye, and he doesn't think he ever be.

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"Oh, it hurts so hard
For a million different reasons
You took the best of my heart
And left the rest in pieces"
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Billy tried to go on with life and tried to make his life work without stu, but it seemed impossible,

It was impossible because he needed stu, and he never realized how much he needed him until he was gone.

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"I'm still holdin' on
Holdin' on, holdin' on
I'm still holdin' on
Holdin' on, holdin' on
I'm still holdin' on
Holdin' on
I'm still holdin' on
I'm still, ooh
Still holdin' on"
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Some days are harder than others , sometimes, he just wants to give up, but his friends are keeping him anchor .

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"I'm still holdin' on to everything that's dead and gone
I don't wanna say goodbye 'cause this one means forever
Now you're in the stars and six-feet's never felt so far
Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers"
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Sometimes Billy would lay on his rooftop and look at the stars and would talk like stu was right beside him, and he would tell him about his day and the stupid stuff that Randy does

He cries to himself afterward.

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"Oh, it hurts so hard
For a million different reasons
You took the best of my heart
Left the rest in pieces"
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He'll never stop loving or missing him, but Billy is getting better as the years go by. He doesn't think he could ever love another,

But that was alright because he doesn't need another, and soon he will be able to be with stu again

And Billy knows that is alright, and he doesn't mind one bit.
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