Billy loomis x stu macher || one-shots || book four

"The eighteenth birthday,"

Stu macher sat on his bed with a small knife in hand, his hands were shaking and tears were spilling out of his eyes, the loudness of the music was muffled by his closed door ,

Today is his birthday, his eighteenth birthday. He was the last one of his friends to turn eighteen,only a couple months younger than all his friends, they treat him like a kid, stu didn't mind at all , he kinda liked it because nobody in his childhood ever treated him like a kid, it was a weird reverse thing for him, as a kid people treated him like an adult but as an adult they treat him as a kid, it was weird and freaky at the same time.

Billy had thrown a surprise birthday party for stu. He had Tatum distract him so he wouldn't be home all day, but all stu wanted was to be left alone on his birthday because it made it harder for him to go through with it.

Stu loved Billy so much, and it made a huge dent in his plan, his plan that he had perfectly planned out for years ,

What would Billy think? He threw this huge birthday party for him, just so he could kill himself? Stu couldn't do that to Billy, even if it meant putting hold on his plan ,

Maybe he could continue his plan on his twentieth birthday,

Stu sniffled, shakily wiping his tears , "Hey babe, you in here.....stu? What are you doing with that?" Billy had walked into the room, the music slightly gotten louder before it was muffled again when Billy closed the door behind him

His eyes never left the knife that stu was holding , "stu...put the knife down, let's talk about this, okay?" Billy told him, in a soft voice, carefully walking towards him

Stu let out a sob, dropping the knife into the floor, Billy closed the gap between them, pulling stu into his embrace while kicking the knife away from them

"I've got you, let it out doll, I've got you," Billy pressed a kiss to his head while rubbing stu's back in a comfort manner

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Billy , I'm so sorry," stu cried out ,"it's okay, it's okay," Billy told him and stu sniffled pulling back, looking at him

"I had this...I had this whole plan, Billy...I had it for years,....I was going to kill myself today, Billy.....I was, I was going to, " stu told him, and Billy's own eyes welled up with tears, they slid down his face,

"How many years? How many years did you have this plan stu?" Billy questioned and stu sniffled ,"six years Billy, "

Billy's heart officially broke , "You...that..." He couldn't even form a sentence, Billy took a deep breath

"You were twelve stu, you wanted to kill yourself since you were twelve?" Billy said, his voice wavering at the end

"That was the day I realized that I was going to be alone forever. My parents are never home, and even if they were, they ignored me. My sister Barley calls me anymore , I don't even know my own nephew, " stu told him

"I...I made a promise to myself six years ago that I would kill myself on my eighteenth birthday," he added

"But I couldn't, I couldn't do it Billy, I didn't do it because of you," stu sobbed out, and Billy pulled him back into his embrace,

"But I can't do it anymore Billy, I'm tired of being alone, of being forgotten, I can't do it anymore," stu cried out, hugging Billy tightly

Billy pulled back and cupped his face in his hands ,"Hey, Hey, listen to me, stu, you have me, okay? You have me, and you will always have me. As long as you have me, as long as you're with me, you will never be alone, and you will never be forgotten , I love you so goddam much, it hurts stu, " Billy told him

"A-..and you have to tell me these things, okay? You promise me that you'll tell me if you're having suicidal thoughts, okay? I don't care what time it is, or what I'm doing, you come and you tell me, okay? Because we're in this together, " Billy added

"B... but what if you leave me? What if you get tired of me, Billy? Just like my family did? " Billy shook his head

"I would never get tired of you, stu, never, in fact...I was going...I was going to ask you to marry me tonight, after the slow dance ," Billy told him and stu looked at him with wide eyes

Billy sniffled and pulled out a small black box from his pocket ,"I brought this a couple of months ago, um..Dewey helped me pick it out, you know he threatened me that if I hurt you that he was going to shoot me and nobody will ever find my body," Billy said

A small chuckle left stu ,"I'm sorry that I ruined it," he said, and Billy shook his head

"You didn't, I know this is very shitty timing, but will you marry me, stu? You will never have to be alone again. You will be forgotten again," Billy said

A small whimper left stu before he hugged Billy, "Yes...I'll marry you," Billy smiled, hugging stu tightly

"I love you so goddam much stu," he whispered, "I love you more than anything billy," stu whispered back

"My twentieth birthday, Billy, I was planning on trying again on my twentieth birthday," stu added, and Billy held him tighter

"You won't." Billy replied and stu looked up at him , "I promise you, " he added and stu shakily raised his pinky ,"pinkie promise?" Billy chuckled and hooked his pinkie with stu's

"I pinkie promise," Billy said and stu let out a small giggle ,"you ever going to me that ring Billy loomis?"

"Right, the ring, I forgot, " stu let out a small laugh as Billy opened the box, stu let out a gasp,"it's beautiful,"

"You deserve the best,"
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Word count - 1023

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