NUXIIITHIRTEEN IX

Missing

I miss a Pa way more than he
For thought let me be me him and T
Love both of those old guys
But right now I just hide
Pull myself out of that whole bunch
I was not trying to punch
But i know that hurt us all
When he left we all started to crawl

From a place of utter pain
He made so many rain
Tears and tears could drown an ocean
He treated me like his own son

This may be just some honest lines
But I honestly cry all the time
But not for my own dad
For the Pa I never had

I fucked up alot after that
Not disputing that ugly fact
Tried to hold on to oh so much
Too much for me a heavy punch

Forgive me or forgive my not
I have not even caught
Many winds have come threw
I hope one day my own dreams come true