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Areum was scrolling through the comments on her instagram post. She had always received hate comments. Even when she was a trainee. So usually these wouldn't phase her, but it was the amount of likes and comments agreeing to them which hurt her. It was one thing that someone thought that about her but another if it had thousands of people agreeing. She knew she shouldn't but she clicked on the responses and read them. All of them saying how she didn't deserve to be so loved. What did she do to deserve this? She doesn't work hard so why is she so popular? After that she spiralled, reading more and more until she had been reading them for the past two hours. She put her phone down and went into Thea's room. Areum knocked on the door and opened the door, standing in the door way with her eyes filled with tears
"What's wrong, Moony?" Thea quickly asked, getting off of her bed and waking towards the younger girl, immediately wrapping her arms around her. In response to the hug Areum broke down into tears. Her whole body shaking with each sob. She pushed further into Thea until she felt hidden from the world "sweetie, what's wrong?" Thea repeated, holding the back of Areum's head, stroking it comfortingly
"They hate me" she sobbed "I work so hard..." she said, gasping for breath "but they hate me"
"They don't hate you" she whispered "no one could hate you. They're jealous, that's it. Jealous you're successful and they aren't. That's all it is" Despite the words Areum kept crying "Areum, it's okay, I promise"
"I'm exhausted" she whispered, her tears soaking Thea's shirt "I haven't slept properly for the past 5 years. I've been working for 5 years. Training. For what? To be hated?"
"I know, Areum" Thea sighed, hugging the girl tighter "but we're going to be okay"
"I'm just so tired, Tee" she said, stepping back from the older member "I'm so tired of trying my hardest, all just so I can be attacked by people who don't know me. I do everything for them. I haven't spoken to my family for a month because I'm working. I miss my parents and my siblings. I can't even walk down the street without being chased" she told the other girl, tears brimming her eyes again "I trained my whole life for this. I gave up on key moments of my childhood to be hated......I can't do it anymore" she sobbed "I...I can't do it"
"Yes you can" she said, holding her face in her hands "you're so strong. You can do it. I know you can"
"What if I can't?" Areum sobbed "i miss my family, my friends. I have no clue what's going on with my parents. How my brothers are. How my sister is. It's killing me" she said, tears spilling from her eyes "I just wanna be happy" she cried, her breaths coming in pants and her heart beat fastening. Thea was always there to comfort Areum but she didn't know what to do now. She took her phone out of her pocket and texted Sunghoon, telling him to come to the dorm. Thea sat Areum down and held her hands, trying to help her slow her breaths "I told sunghoon to come over, he'll be here soon, okay?"
She nodded slightly, still slowly breathing out. Her breaths in were like hiccups. I took 3 minutes for Sunghoon to come from his dorm. As soon as he walked in he went straight to Thea's room "Reumy" he whispered, crouching down in front of her and holding both her hands, gripping onto them "look at me" he said. When she didn't ,he repeated himself "Areum ,please look me at me" she reluctantly looked up and met his eyes "breath with me" he took a breath in and out. She followed his breathing and slowly she calmed down. It took about 11 minutes before her breathing was completely normal again "what happened?" He asked
"I saw some comments" she told him, looking down at their intertwined hands
He took a deep breath "come on, Reumy. You know not to do that"
"I know but it's hard to stop myself" she sighed
"There was more to that though" he said "you don't get like that only because of hate comments"
"I guess it's just a build up" she said, smiling tightly "I'm just really tired of everything. I've been working hard everyday for the past five years and I guess It just got too much today" she shrugged "I'll be okay"
"You need to stop ignoring your own emotions until you burst" he told her "you care so much about the people around you, you don't care for yourself"
"I'm happy if the people I love are happy" she told him "I don't need someone worrying and thinking about me everyday, wondering if I'm okay"
"Well you do" he said "me. And I'll be worrying about you forever. That's just how it's going to be. Just tell me before this happens"
"I don't like worrying you" she sighed, tears filling her eyes "I've been dealing with my own problems for my whole life. I'm not used to people caring about how I feel. That was my job. It was my job to care about everyone else. No body asked me how I was feeling. What I was going through" Sunghoon wiped the fallen tears off her cheeks "no body was there for me"
"Well now you have me" he smiled reassuringly "and I'm always going to be here. Asking you how you're feeling. What you're going through. So get used to it" he grinned
"What if I said no" she smirked, sniffing quietly "I don't deserve you" she said suddenly
"What?"
"You're too good for me" she sighed "you're perfect and I'm useless"
"Don't say that" he said, squeezing her hands "you're the best person I know. I'm lucky to have you. I wouldn't be here without you" he told her "you've made me a better person and that's undeniable"
