it got drastically worse (kms)

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I feel like I literally did everything in life like there's nothing more to do and everything is boring and overplayed/overused (no dildo jokes this is serious) like I can't even listen to songs it made me the happiest before but rn it's like I'm listening to the same shit over and over again there's still good songs but those don't last

When I said it got better that's what I always thought but this shit is crazy rn I'm fucking FAILING
IM FUCKING FAILING FROM COMPUTER CLASS.

I feel like I'm gonna kms really really soon even if I'm scared of death and don't wanna like KMS kms I'm too perfect and hot but I feel like I have no other choice like I can't afford to lose

Plus I feel like I'm just Hella stupid like book smart kinda stupid I mean like yeah I'm good at chemistry and languages (czech mid) and whatever else but when we have computer class I just feel like a loser like a STUPID loser and I LITERALLY break down every single time I'm in computer class /srs

It's so embarrassing crying in school even if no one notices but I just can't

Off topic but I lowkey wanna go to Germany rn for no apparent reason with my bestie like we'd go there during summer (if I won't FUCKING FAIL THE CLASS) (pls pray for me that I pass or I will kms)
I just want someone to tell me they believe in me that they believe I can do it like some stranger that doesn't know shit about me only about the situation
But like I kinda wanna go to Germany even if I'd laugh my ass off everytime I'd hear the germans talking it's so funny
Like idk like as an experience it's not even like THAT expensive to go BUT THE THING IS idk if I can actually travel by train or whatever else AS A MINOR. A lot of the shits say that the parent or legal guardian whatever the fuck that is (😢) would have to sign it which is kinda ridiculous
It either says 16 year olds can travel if u have ticket and shit or it says 16 yos can travel but it has to be signed so idk I hope not
I can speak a little German even if I can't hear shit if they speak German but I'd be good

One last thing is in a little bit there will be end of school year like I got accepted into the high school but if I'd fucking fail I won't go there or maybe I'd do tests over the summer break to fix the shit I've heard it was a thing but I hope I'll become smart and pass the shit pls pray for me babies gang

UPDATE: cry about it God damn

UPDATE: cry about it God damn

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