Until The End 《Sope》

5.

Hoseok opened his eyes slowly, the white cieling of the hospital room stared right back at him. He tried to remember where he was, all of his memories were blurry like a thin layer of fog was swept over them.  And then all of it  came crashing down at him and he winced slightly. He remembered the letter, getting kidnapped, Yoongi coming to save him and him getting shot.
He turned his head to the right and the sight made his heart hurt due to unknown reasons. There was Yoongi with his head on the bed, fast asleep. He tried to move his hand to touch Yoongi's frowning face and found out his hand was held in Yoongi's.
The action also woke up the older, he slowly sat up and looked at Hoseok, the situation dawning on him. Hoseok was awake, finally.

"Sunshine." he whispered slowly carassing Hoseok's hairs and the latter leaned in the touch.
"I'll get the doctors." he informed Hoseok and stood up to leave but a weak hold on his wrist made him stop. Hoseok was looking at him with pleading eyes, asking him to not go yet.
"I'll be back in a moment sunshine, the doctors need to check up on you to make sure you are fine." Yoongi explained softly as if teaching a little child the ways to solve the trignometric equation.
Hoseok reluctantly let go of his hands but his eyes stayed the same. He couldn't really say anything due to the oxygen mask. Yoongi leaned down and pecked his forehead.
"I'll be back." he told the younger and then left.

Yoongi was back in the room sooner than Hoseok expected, behind him was an array of Nurses and Doctors. The doctor came up to check on him.
"Mr Min. please wait outside." the doctor insisted and Yoongi would have protested had it been another day, but right now he just nodded.
He looked at Hoseok's panicked eyes, "Don't worry, I'm just outside." he assured and left.

The doctor came out of the room after 5 minutes with a smile.
"He is totally fine now Mr. Min. He'll be completely healed in about 3 or 4 months." the doctor said.
"When can he go home?" asked Yoongi.
"We will need to keep him here for another week to monitor his stiches and recovery. After that you are free to take him home." replied the doctor.
"Ok, can I see him now?'' 
"Yes ofcourse."
"Thank you doctor."

Yoongi entered Hoseok's room after the doctor left. Hoseok was still lying down but the oxygen mask was removed.
He sat in the chair he previosuly was and held Hoseok's hand again.
"How are you feeling?'' he asked the first question that came to his mind.
"Shitty." Hoseok replied with a grin. "But it's ok it doesn't hurt."
Yoongi raised his eyebrows at him.
"Ok it doesn't hurt MUCH." Hoseok corrected himself.
Yoongi stared at him for a few second then sighed. He looked like he wanted to say something, not just something he wanted to say so many things but he kept quiet unsure of where to start.
"I'm sorry." he finally blurted out after minutes of silence.
"Why?'' Hoseok asked confused.
"Because...because of everything. I should have protected you. I should have...." Yoongi was silenced when he felt Hoseok squeezing his hands.
"I know we have a lot to talk about, but as much as I want to clear everything I can't deny that I'm feeling like really tired. I don't want to miss what you are trying to say because I fell asleep while you were talking." Hoseok said pouting.

Yoongi chuckled, the first real traces of happiness he felt since the past day.
"I'm sorry Hobi, you should go to sleep. It's fine."
"You should also get some rest, it's not ideal sleeping in a chair you know."
"I'm not leaving your side."
"Yoongi I'm fine.."
"I'm staying."
Hoseok huffed irritated, a pout forming on his lips again. He would have argued with Yoonngi further but he simply didn't have the energy.
"Fine atleast lean down a bit."  he requested.
"Why?" the older asked, completely familiar with Hoseok's mischevious antics.
"Because I want to kiss you and I can't fucking move." replied Hoseok sassily.
Yoongi laughed, the sound sending warmth through Hoseok's body. Hoseok always thought that Yoongi's laugh was beautiful, like warm blanket on a cold night. He also allowed himself to smile.

"Well how can I say no to such lovely request." Yoongi teased and then leaned down softly kissing the younger's lips.
The kiss was sweet, almost like some of the lazy kisses they shared upon waking up next to each other. They didn't move too much, just stayed there savouring the feeling of the other's lips on their own.
Yoongi broke the kiss and then placed a peck on Hoseok's nose and then one on his forehead.
"Go to sleep sunshine." he said in the softest voice. Hoseok always wondered how someone who seemed as tough and scary as Yoongi, can be the softest fluffball full of care and love. And the fact that Yoongi was like this with only him always made him feel super special.

Yoongi sat down in his chair again, though closer this time. His fingers were threading through Hoseok's blond hairs. Sleep was creeping up omn the younger no matter how much he tried to stay awake. Hoseok didn't want to sleep, not yet anyway. He kept looking at Yoongi who was staring back at him with so much love in his eyes that Hoseok felt he might combust. He closed his eyes due to the overwhelming feeling.
What did he do to deserve a man like Yoongi? Or maybe the better question would be whether he deserved Yoongi?
The only plausible answer that his mind came up with was, he didn't. He thought he did not deserve Yoongi, although Yoongi definately had quite different thoughts on the topic.

Hoseok had always thought himself unworthy of the older. Yoongi was so beautiful, way too beautiful to be honest. He had given Hoseok the love he did not ever dream of recieving, when he had only hurt the older in response. It was selfish of him to hold back Yoongi from finding someone better.
He looked at Yoongi again, the latter was still staring at him with the same look in his eyes.

"If I could" spoke Hoseok. "If I could I would give you the world."
Yoongi smiled at his words, then leaned down carassing his cheecks, "I already have you, I don't need anything. You are my world."
"Why me? You can have someone so much better than me."
Hoseok wasn't planning on crying, but few tears still made their way down his cheecks. He felt so weak and vulnerable right now.
Yoongi held his face in both of his hands. His thumbs wiping down the stray tears that rolled down the blonde's cheeck. He placed a soft kiss on the latter's lips then spoke, "But I don't want someone better, all I want is you."

Hoseok blushed at his words. The older never failed to make his heart flutter due to his words and gestures, and here he was again stealing a heart that already belonged to him.
"Now don't think about these things. Get some sleep."
Hosseok nodded and closed his eyes.

Maybe it was selfish, but he was allowed to be selfish every once in a while. 

Author's note- I'm sorry if this is a really short chapter but my laptop is in repair right now and I can't write.
I'll upload longer chapters like before once I get my laptop back. For now I hope you enjoy this.