That night I sat I my room, thinking, crying,and eavesdropping on my mom and dad talking. I heard them screaming at each other about what to do. My mom was screaming, "we can't put dangerous chemicals in her!" And my dad screamingly, "It is her only chance!"
I couldn't believe it! First I get cancer then I break apart my family! I have had enough of this cancer! Why does God hate me! Why is God standing back and letting this happen!
I had always gone to church and had a solid relationship with God! Why was he letting this happen?! I cried myself to sleep never wanting to wake up!
I woke the next morning and automatically started crying. My parents and I came to the agreement that I wasn't going to school for a couple of weeks. Or, until I was reacting to the treatment that started in around one week.
I quickly got dressed so I would feel less disgusted with myself. Cancer made me feel like I couldn't function; like there was no purpose to live anymore!
I walked down the stairs very slowly. My mom called to me,"How are you feeling today?" She made it sound like I was a sick puppy that needed special care. I AM NOT a sick little puppy!!!
"I'm fine," I said. I quickly grabbed some bacon off the stove and ran back upstairs! As a tween you're in a phase where you care what everyone else thinks. So, I thought long and hard about how I would present myself to my fellow sixth graders. I somehow got the idea in my head that I had the word Cancer printed on my forehead with black Sharpie!
I have an older brother named Liam that is a freshman in high school. He normally acts like he doesn't even know that I exist! But, today he came into my room and just looked at me. I was pretending that I was asleep but I was really staring at him with my eyes half closed. Liam's face expression wasn't the same disgusted look he normally has but a loving, depressed look.
I thought that the loving look was just from him looking at my Katniss poster. I came to the conclusion that the depressed look came from the fact that his friends might not come over because I was contaminated.
I grabbed my phone out of the bottom drawer of my dresser and I checked my messages immediately! I had to know if my friends knew about my Cancer contamination! My mom always has told me that real friends will stick with you throughout everything. I hate to crush her physiologist mom moment but I think we all know that if you aren't cool anymore that your friends will desert you faster than you can explain!
All I knew going into this journey was I knew it would be hard. But trust me, at the beginning I. Ever realized how hard it was actually going to be. In the beginning I had this thing called FEAR and it hurt me more that the cancer was going to.
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FEAR
Teen FictionMolly Evergreen is an average 14 year old until she is thrown an obstacle that even she thinks she can't overcome. Cancer. When everyone has given up on her will she still keep going or give up her will to stay.