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chp 3 jesse

He always was
Even in elementary school when I had soft ball game and my dad and mom was to busy with work to come you always came to every single game to make sure I had someone there to support me all the way up to 9 grade when I quit. I remember some off the single moms and some of my teammates eyeing him up and some of the mom's even trying to flirt with him I wanted to throw the ball at them I did once and acted like it was on accident while warming up before the game but I don't tell him this because I don't know if my feeling are reciprocated.and I'll always be your number one you can count on it like I said first one in line on your opening day.im smiling so hard my cheeks start to throb.its then I noticed the Gosse bumps on his arms a realized he was cold so I scotted closer to him and put the blanket around him and snuggled into his arm.

he smelled like he always smelled.amazing like cinnamon and wood he wraps an arm around me brings me closer to him I look away from the sun set and look up at him few seconds go by and he looks down at me and we stay there for what feels like hours but was probably just a minute he leans down and I in lean in to.

and we next thing I know we're kissing and in straddleing him his hands are in my hair pulling me closer and his tongue and mine moving in sync his moving against mine an me sucking his lips are so soft like how I always dreamed the would be then he abruptly pulls away and licks his lips.im sorry that should not have happened I feel my heart start sinking and all the joy I was just feeling washes away.come on we have to go!

We walk back to the truck drive back to my house the air in the car is so thick and the silence awkward it feels like the drive speeds by and soon we're pulling up my parents drive way we sit there for a second none of us moving.im sorry that should not have happened I didn't mean for it to go there well I'm not sorry and I'm glade it went like that I loved it
Yeah I liked it to but it can't happen again why not because your dad's my best friend and im 15 years older
Than you you have your whole life ahead of you.

what if I want you in it you know we can't do that we can you just don't want to I get out the car and walk to the front door and close it when I get inside I hear my parents say something but I was too mad to really care I get to my room I slam my door I plop on to my bed and feel the tears start to fall. how could he kiss me like that then say that we can't do it again that I can't feel his soft lips on mine again and I can't feel his tongue moving against mine again an the pressure I felt when his hands were in my hair our body's rubbing on each other while trying to get closer then we already were and he thinks that I'm just gonna give up that feeling without a fight he is mistaken because that will be happening again.

I know he's holding back because of my dad and their friendship but i loved the way I felt when he was looking at me at the party the way his eyes were roming my body and the he paused at the slit in my dress it made me feel like I was the only one in the room and God when I walked to me the fluttering I felt in my stomach when he smiled at me and I was suddenly wrapped in his scent made me want to stuff
My face in his neck to take in more of but I stopped myself I know know he wants me to I see the was he looks at me I just have to figure out how to get him to stop pushing me away.