Letter #2: Pain.
23rd of July 2018
Dearest Gabrielle Thalia,
It pains me to see how your eyes shimmer whenever Eliseo's around... How your smile reaches your ears... How you fidget your fingers because of how nervouse you are... and how proudly you talk to your friends about him. It pains me pero alam kong masaya ka tuwing nasisilayan mo siya...
I tried to confess my feelings for you countless times before pero akala mo jino-joke time lang kita. Hindi mo ako pinapaniwalaan. But when Eliseo was the one who confessed, pinaniwalaan mo ka-agad. Kahit na wala pa kayong isang buwan na magkakilala... It feels so unfair, Bubba. I love you. I love you more than words can say. Pero bakit hindi mo ako makita?
Nagpaalam pa ako sa buong pamilya mo kung pwede ba kitang ligawan because I thought we were on the same page... We act like lovers, even your friends noticed that. I asked you out last Februay 14, 2017, and you turned me down. Ang sabi mo you're still not ready to be in a relationship... ayaw mo sa commitment. That you still have a lot to accomplish as an individual...
But when you met Eliseo and he asked you out, without asking your parents for permission first, you still gave him your sweetest yes.
I am not mad, Bubba. I'm in pain. Magkaiba po iyon kaya pasensya ka na kung madalas kitang masungitan... nasasaktan kasi ako na hawak na ng iba 'yung mundo ko. I'm sorry, Thalia.
I don't think I can ever brush off the feelings that I have for you. Hindi ko na kayang magsinungaling sa harapan mo na hindi kita gusto at hindi ako nasasaktan because I know so well how much you hate liars.
My heart is breaking, Thalia... but I am genuinely happy for the both of you.
Love,
Laszlo Nikolas
YOU ARE READING
His Midnight Rain
RomanceBetween certainty and chase, Gabrielle Cruz chose the latter. She thought she was doing the right thing, but what if the world turned upside down? Will she still miss the adventure of the chase, or will she long for peace and certainty?
