Instincts

Ms. Rose

- After the man I married had died I didn't even know what to expect. I was in shock, it had happened so fast I froze, its just... the way he died. My daughter was always there for me, the first time me and my husband had an argument he... had got very... upset. He was druck and he had h-hit me and left the building we all lived in. My daughter was so young and I didn't want her to see or hear us like this but unfortunately that wasn't the case.

- My name is Maria Rose and I am the proud mother of my daughter named Stephanie Rose. The reason that's her last name is because my ex-husband loved me that much before, but then he went down the wrong hill. He was grateful  to be married to me and have a child with me, so he wanted to name her after my side of the family's name.

- If I had stayed with her and not left then I probably might have put both of us in SERIOUS trouble, and that is a risk I will NEVER be willing to take. I think about her everyday, how she is doing, if she is eating well, if she has a stable job, if she is thinking of me too, if she is able to trust enough... or if she is s-still... a-alive. I miss her so much and I really wish I didn't have to leave but everything happens for a reason. I know one day we will reunite, but now is not the right time.

- I worry so much about what she is going through but I know she will be able to protect herself, I did raise a responsible young lady, at least... I hope. I go to therapy every week and once, I thought I heard her name, loud and clear I heard * Stephanie Rose * I immediately looked around, no this can't be a coincidence... right?

- This woman is my therapist, she is the EXACT REFLECTION  of my baby. * Maria Rose? * she wrote on the note pad she held and she asked for my name of which I confirmed to be mine. She looked at me and said/wrote * hmm, that name sounds familiar * I replied * yes maria is a common name * ( but not really my last name ) I began to shake the thought of this being my long lost daughter because she wasn't "silent" or... did she... become... silent. ( she also thinks its rude to say that she is mute.)

- Once my session was over I thought that if That woman was really my little girl I would be so happy that she is in lovely shape and a beautiful young lady. But not only that I would be so grateful to see her once again. I am no longer in risk of danger so this would actually be a good time to reunite but I must be patient. If I don't wait then what am I supposed to say " hi I might be your long lost mother but im not sure " no that would mostlikley freak her out. I will keep trying to get information on her and only when im really sure we are family then and only then will I tell her. ( Maria knows that she "lost" her mother because she technically told her. Withoyt writing on the note pad.)

- By then she will also have information on me aswell so she hopefully believe me and we could be together again as a family 😌. I could barely sleep at night now but that would really calm my nerves. I hope to be with my daughter again, and I pray that Im right about this. * This is the most life/hope I have ever felt in so long *...