The poetry oasis [English]

Glasses

I put my glasses on to see things more clear,
I remove them seeing the world i fear.

To achieve my goals,
My determination was sheer,
But seeing myself fail,
I removed my glasses,
To stop seeing my fear.

But did it help?
No it did not.
Not wearing glasses blurs my vision,
Not my mind.

Thoughts kept running in my brain,
Overthinking was what i couldn't refrain.

I did not want to see my fears,
So i took my glasses off,
And again the world was blur,
But my fears were still clear.
So i closed my eyes to be lost in the darkness.
But still my fears were clear.

Fear of failure,
Fear of being a disappointment,
Fear of being a sick little nobody,
Thoughts crammed my brain.
My eyes started to drain.

I wish my mind had glasses,
I would take them off,
To blur my fears,
To blur my thoughts
And to blur my scary past.

I wish my mind had eyes,
I would close them,
To stop seeing my fears,
To stop seeing myself fail
And to stop seeing my helpless self.