"Ours" || Sana x Dahyun (SaiDa) [Book 2]

Chapter 7

Dahyun's POV

After two months, we finally had the time to go to Shawn's family vacation spot together as 8. 9 if you included Dana.

We're all currently by the beach right now because Chaeyoung wanted to play beach volleyball. While they were having fun from a distance, I, on the other hand, was close to the shore, trying to relax myself while I'm on vacation.

Dana's with her aunties, Nayeon and Jihyo, as the rest played beach volleyball. My daughter needed someone to look after her, after all.

I would've done that, as her mother, but my two unnies told me to just relax myself as they handle my hyper girl. I protested since it's my duty to look after her as her parent but they insisted that I should look after myself first.

And that's why I'm here, alone. Or so I thought.

I heard footsteps from behind, approaching my direction. The person sat down next to me, which made me look them. It's just Shawn.

"You're not joining the fun over there, something the matter?" He asked me in concern as he gestures over my other friends.

"I'm kind of not in the mood for beach volleyball. Plus, Jihyo-unnie and Nayeon-unnie are taking care of my daughter for me as they said I should give myself some time first." I explained to Shawn without even looking at him. I just stared at a distance, watching other people have some fun in the sea.

"That's why I informed your friend that you guys should come over our beach. Mina tells me about your current state and she've noticed that you look so tired and stressed lately. What's up with that?"

"With a life like mine, it's a struggle, Shawn. I need to finish my education, take care of Dana, and I'm missing her, like so damn much. I thought after those 2 years of raising my daughter alone, I'd be over Sana. But now, here I am again." I fought the urge to cry while I'm with Shawn.

But with one glance over a happy family playing in the sea, my chest tightened in pain and envy.

Would I experience that kind of joy ever?

"It's not easy to move on to someone who made you feel like you deserve the whole world, Dahyun. Who knows? Maybe my cousin feels the same way about you." I can notice how he seemed to be doing his best to comfort me. I appreciate the thought but it's not enough to ease the pain.

"I kind of doubt it now, Shawn. Sana's getting married. She has her own life to deal with, without me." I responded, feeling dejected.

I feel like, no matter how much I would hear someone saying that what I'm feeling right now might also be the case for Sana, I wouldn't be able to believe it until I witness or hear her say it herself.

Standing up, Shawn said something that made me realize something, "You shouldn't lose hope, Dahyun. Remember, that's the reason why you two have been separated in the first place."

He has a point. I lose hope for both of us, because of how tired I am with our situation back then.

But I only did that for her... I don't want to see her being tortured by her own parent because of me...

"I'm gonna go now to handle some business, Dahyun. Call me if you need me." Shawn winked and said for one last time before leaving my side.

I started hugging my knees, burying my face on them as my mind flooded with so much thought yet again.

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Timeskip

I woke up in the middle of the night, although I'm feeling restless and tired.

I wanted to go back to sleep but my eyes just seem like they don't want to close.

I sighed and got off my bed, trying not to wake up my sleeping baby beside me.

I decided to go outside by the beach alone to clear my mind. Maybe to find inspiration as well.

Once I've reached the outside of the hotel we're currently staying in, a cold breeze immediately made contact against my skin, making me shiver.

I know I should've brought myself a jacket.

Still, I went closer to the beach's shore and sat down on the dry sand.

The dark, night sky tonight just reminded me so much about my moment together with Sana by this exact same beach.

We were so happy back then. I was over the moon when she asked me to be her girlfriend in this beach.

But now, those were just memories of the past. We're not together now.

"The moon is beautiful tonight, isn't it?" Her sweet voice rang into my mind.

I couldn't help myself from tearing up. How could a happy memory like that, had now become the cause of my overall depression?

It's 2am and I'm thinking about us again.

I don't even have the rights to cry this badly because of Sana. I was the one who broke up with her in the first place. No matter what was the reason I did it for.

Stop this nonsense, Dahyun. You pushed her away when the only reason she left you was for your safety.

But that's what I also did for her.

I grabbed my hair out of frustration. I'm so lost right now, it's making me feel frustrated.

We said that we'd always be by each other's side, that we'll stick it out until the end.

But it wasn't even worth the fight. We've got separated in the end no matter how much we tried.

Did we even try to fight in the first place? We were so weak for each other that the only thing we could do was to let go of our relationship.

I know it might sound crazy, Sana, but do you even miss me like I do with you right now?

I wish you were here badly, Sana.

And I wish I took back all the words I said to you...

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