After we had finished eating, we stepped back outside into the night. I shivered, feeling the sudden shock from the warm environment to cold.
"I'll walk you home." Miliani said while pulling her hood over her head.
"Huh?? Oh, no, it's fine." I told her. She doesn't need to walk me home. She's already done so much for me.
"Nope. It's dark and dangerous for cute girls like you." She said softly and got closer to me. I looked up at her. She was about four inches taller than me.
I felt extremely nervous, but I couldn't look away from her beautiful brown eyes. I was completely entranced.
I took a few steps back until I felt the cold brick wall against my back. She came closer, my heart was beating so fast, and I felt my face flush. I didn't even realize I had stopped breathing, crap how do you do that again?
She then pulled the hood from my sweater over my head to protect me from the cold. Why was I feeling so nervous over that? Was I expecting a different outcome??
We've only hung out for like a few hours, but Miliani just made me feel all fluffy and safe. Is it bad that I wanted her to cuddle me? Friends do that, right? Sh-she is my friend, right?? Maybe I'm getting too ahead of myself.
She held my hand and smiled sweetly at me, which made me look down, feeling small and anxious.
"Lead the way, princess." She said, and I nodded, heading home. It got pretty windy, and before I knew it, the distance between me and Miliani was nearly nonexistent.
She was so close to me, I could feel her warmth. For some reason, it made me feel extra shy and nervous when a thought came to my head.
"Wait, what about you? It's dangerous for you to be out too." It's not like I can walk her home after getting to my place. It'll turn into that one Spongebob episode with us just going back and forth.
"I'll be fine." She answered, and I pursed my lips, not satisfied with her response.
"Nonono, when I said that you said it was "too dangerous." How come you can walk in the dark all alonesome?" I said and internally started panicking over what I just said. I got a bit too comfortable talking with her.
Normal teens don't talk like that either. What the hell is wrong with me?! I'm such an idiot! It's fine, it's fine, maybe she didn't even notice. I can't let myself get too comfortable.
"I don't mind throwing a punch or a kick to the balls if I need to. Plus," she got out a pocket knife from her sweatpants. "I got a knife."
She got me there. I really can't fight at all, even if it's for self defense, I'd feel too guilty hurting someone.
"Besides," she said, hugging me from behind and making me squeak in surprise.
"I said I'd protect you and keep you safe, remember?" She said softly. The way she was holding me and how she rested her head on my shoulder made me feel like I was being tickled in my tummy.
She pulled away and held my hand again as we got to my house. I am at a loss for words. Who exactly is this chick? Was she actually an alien? Is this what it's like to have friends? Am I feeling happiness? Is that what this is?
"Well, this is my house. Thank you so much for walking me and for the food, I really appreciate it." I said, looking down and smiling.
Miliani smiled and pulled me into a hug. Her embrace was strong but caring. It made me melt, and I could feel my cheeks getting warm. I felt nervous, but at the same time, I didn't want the hug to end.
"Bye princess, take care, ok?" She said softly while caressing my cheek. I said a quiet goodbye to her and waved as she walked off into the night.
I went inside and hurried to my room before I started squealing and basically fangirling like a 12 year old girl at a boyband concert.
Oh my god!! Oh my god!! I actually have a friend!! I have a friend!!! And she's so nice and sweet and oh my goood!!!
I giggle to myself, remembering how she hugged me and called me princess. It just tickled my tummy and made me feel all strange but in a good way.
I've never felt like this before. I haven't had a friend since elementary school. Is this what it's like?
I flop onto my bed and hug Cream. I was home alone for the weekend since mother goes out to drink on Fridays and doesn't return until late Sunday, so I can basically do anything.
Ooh! I should take a warm bubble bath! I deserve it after all this. I really like Miliani and I'm happy I've made a friend, but it really tired me out. I was constantly so nervous, and she made me feel all fluffy and stuff. I'm not used to any of this at all.
I start to fill up the tub then get my Rilakkuma water bottle, and go fill it with strawberry lemonade.
I return and I turn off the faucet, then take off my clothes and get in the warm water with vanilla scented bubbles and rubber duckies.
Today actually turned out to be pretty decent. I mean, overall, it still sucked but super mega awesome sauce things happened. For once, I'm kind of glad I went to school.
I replayed in my head when Miliani held my hand. She was soooo soft and delicate. And when she hugged me, oh my gosh!! She smelled so sweet. It was intoxicating but in a good way.
After about half an hour of just thinking about my time with Miliani, I decided to get out. I looked at my clothes next to the tub and saw a paper sticking out of the pocket of my sweater.
Strange... I dont remember putting anything in my pockets. I take the paper, it had Miliani's Instagram on it and a message saying "I had fun, let's hang out again?" With a heart next to it.
Oh. My. Glob. I AM FREAKING OUT!!! WHAT DO I DO??
She had fun with me... that's... crazy! I mean, I had fun with her too, but like, I didn't think she did. I thought she was just doing this because she felt bad.
Should I make an Instagram account and follow her? Should I do that now or tomorrow?? This is so stressful!!
I put on my favorite care bear onesie and flopped onto my bed, hugging Cream to calm down.
I really really like her, I want to get close to her, but I don't want to ruin anything.. maybe I'll wait until tomorrow.
Or maybe I'll at least make an account? Gosh, I don't know what to do! I opened Instagram and made an account, then froze. Should I really do this? I bit my lip, deep in thought, going over about a hundred different scenarios in my head.
I think I will wait until tomorrow.
