NOT OKAY | LE SSERAFIM 7th member

XXI

Y/N'S POV

I'm here in my car looking outside to see the dorm where I was living before, I'm hesitating if I'm going inside I don't think I'm ready to see them after all what happened

I'm just here to pick up some of my things since some of it was already on my condo picked up by my ex manager, I insisted that I'm going to be the one picking up the rest since I don't want to bother him, besides he wasn't working with me anymore

A few minutes of battling with my own self, I realized I also need to at least give my proper last goodbyes to them

I'm sure after parting ways the chances of being with them or even talking with them are gonna be hustle, especially we have another comeback in a few weeks, I mean they

So gathering myself I opened the door and as soon as I did I was greeted with a gloomy vibe, I averted my eyes on the living room and saw some of the girls are already looking at me

"Uhm I'm just here to get some of my things, sorry.. to.. bother you guys" they looked at me for a moment before averting their eyes back to the TV

Well that hurts..

I was expecting hugs.. or at least a greet

But anyways I didn't talk anymore and went upstairs to get the things I was here for, when got in my room I immediately arrange my things, putting some of my remaining clothes and things and carefully placing it on the boxes

"Need a hand?" I flinch a bit as I was startled from the sudden voice coming from behind

I turned around and looked up to see Yunjin with a small but soft smile plastered on her face, but I can still see she was somehow exhausted, from her eyebags and almost pale lips

I hesitated a bit from her question

"If you don't mind" she continue seeing I was quite "N-no, not at all" I responded returning the smile

She walk towards me helping me put my things in the box, as I was busy with arranging other things, we are then surrounded by an atmosphere I wasn't used to

THIRD PERSON'S POV

The two girls were then surrounded by a thick and tense atmosphere but Yunjin immediately sense it

"You know I never imagine you leaving us" Yunjin said breaking the ice, Y/n was startled at the sudden topic but nevertheless she reluctantly responded

"Y-yeah me neither" letting out a dry chuckle, Y/n busied herself by continue putting her things in, trying to hide her tenseness, she can feel the stare that the latter was throwing at her from the back

"Why did you do it? Don't you want to be with us anymore?" the kirin girl asked with sadness and confuseness can be heard laced through her cracking voice

Y/n was even more uncomfortable with the sudden questions, her heart speed up a bit making her chest tigthen

She didn't respond immediately but gather herself to try and answer the latter's questions  carefully

"You know I have to" she finally responded but still back facing the other

"God knows how much I wanted to be with you guys, even in my last breath" it was almost a whimper but the kirin girl catches it every word and sadness begin to sip through her heart as she continue to speak up

"But this is the only solution I can come up with" without realizing tears started to pool Y/n's eyes and the pain she was feeling went all back

She stood there gripping the box as it slightly crumpled and got damped wet because of the tears falling from her eyes