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Kazama's Anxiety

Kazama POV -

A huge project was given by our Science teacher  we had prepare a presentation on (something) we also needed make a model of (something) and explain both of them . I had started my preparetion weeks ago and I made a really nice presentation explaining everything in detail and my model looked really good too . I stayed up all night to practice my speech which was also great.i got dark circles under my eyes but it's ok as long as my presentation would go well. God I hope my presentation would go well. Everything was great my model, presentation and speech but there was only one problem. I have social anxiety. When I am being watched by others I feel judged. I try to act perfect but I mess up I loose my concentration and control over myself. History period is just about to end in 5 minutes next is Science period and my presentation. I am already getting kinda anxious how will I persent myself
I felt a tap on my shoulder

Nene - Kazama can u give me your notes- Kazama look at yourself those bangs under your eyes are big. Did u got any sleep last night !?
Kazama-Yeah I stayed up all night but I am ok ( handing her my copy )
Nene- Your probably not (concerned)
Kazama- don't worry about it I am good
Nene- You stayed up because of your presentation
Kazama- hmm
Nene- why do u care about it so much
Kazama- I want marks
Nene - ok just take care of yourself

The bell rang it's Science period now ok ok I have prepared well I have practice alot everything will be fine just a take a deep breath and give your presentation. I said to myself. The teacher came in and told us that we don't have to present ourselves in the class but in auditorium with all sections for some reason. What ? I am already so nervous presenting in front of my classmates and now I have to do it in front of all my bach mates.
We reached the auditorium

Teacher - Ok students class 10th A will present frist
Teacher- Roll no. Wise ok

No,shit I am screwed
Roll no. 1 came up and gave his presentation. ( My roll is 15 ). The students before me gave thir presentation so nicely. I mean thir presentation and model was not as good as mine but they were so confident. Specially Shinnoske, His presentation was amazing. He was so confidently presentating Himself like he does not give a fuck about those hundreds of people who where watching him. His voice was calm. He didn't stutter and his voce was so loud that he didn't even needed mic unlike mine. Even Masao was not that shy and gave his presentation well without stuttering. After that is was my chance but  whatever confidence was left in me was gone.

Teacher- Ok next come quickly !

I came on the stage faced by hundreds of judgemental eyes watching me. My heart was racing and my Palms were getting sweaty as I gave my pendrive to the teacher and she displayed my ppt on the projecter

Kazama - M-morning ma'am a-nd ......my dear f-friends. I am T-toru Kazama and t-tody I a-am going to-
Teacher- Be a little loud I cannot hear you!
Kazama-Yes ma'am !
Some students - ( giggles )

They are laughing at me why won't they. I cannot even introduce myself property. Tears started to form in my eyes. No I cannot cry here in front of so many people. Don't cry! Don't cry ! Kazama you cannot embarrass yourself in front of so many people ! I cleared my throat and tried to wipe tears before anyone noticed  but they probably did. I started cursing myself in my mind my whole body was shaking. I tried to quickly explain my presentation and my model while tears were running down my eyes, I was stuttering  I wanted to get off this stage right now.

Teacher- Just be loud and stop crying. We don't have all day here!  ( she is really strict and shows no mercy. She did not even realise that kazama was having an anxiety attack )
Students- laughing even harder

I was not able to control it anymore. I got off the stage wiping my tears and went in the washroom

Meanwhile ( Shinnoske's POV ) -
I Saw Kazama run off the stage while crying.My blood boiled. That bitch why does she have to be so rude! He was having a freaking anxiety attack and all she did was to shout at him and I idk why are these guys laughing so much there isn't a comedy show going on here! I followed Kazama and found that teacher in my way

Shin- Fuck u miss
Teacher- Excuse me ? ( Shocked and angry )

I ran before she could get me. I knew I am going to get into a lot of trouble because of what I had done but I don't care. All I want to do at that moment was to see Kazama

Kazama POV -
Inside the qubical I cried my heard out. I messed up and made fun of myself in front of my whole grade. what they are going to think of my now ? I am such a looser. Thoughts were running in my head. When I heard a knock

Shin- Toru-kun you ok? ( In calm and sweet tone )

I didn't reply. I expected shinchan to keep banging on the door till I open it but no sound came. I thought that Shinnoske
had left. Idk why wanted him to be here but he left. ( Meanwhile Shinnoske was actually there silently listening to Kazama's sobs) Idk how much time I spent there crying. I opened the door and Shinnoske was standing there waiting for me. He kept his hand on my shoulder with an ensuring smile. I really needed a hug I just hugged him so suddenly that he almost fell down. I hugged him so tight like I would never let him go.

Kazama- I messed up (crying)
Shin- it's Okay, it was not your fault

I pressed my head against his chest. It felt so comfortable. I cried in his arms

Shin- That was not your fault Kazama. Stop blaming yourself for it. It was because of your anxiety and that teacher
Kazama- What will others think ?
Shin - just don't care about them. The people who were laughing were stupid and if anyone says anything to you tell. I'll beat them
Kazama - 😭
Shin - Hey look here. It's fine every one mess up it was not your fault anyway

He looked at me with those beautiful black eyes and voice was so calm and sweet. It felt comforting. That hug felt so warm.

Shinnoske comforted me. It felt so good. I remembered when were little I had lost my keys and I was  in the park stressed not knowing what to do when my friends my.they started searching for the key but one by one all of them left Shin was the only one who stayed. Then he also left after a while and I started crying. I sat in front of my apartment sobbing waiting for my mother to come back home when I saw Shinnoske I thought he left me alone but he Didn't left me alone. He sat with me and shared his sweet potatoes with me. Then he ended up having the key . He is here for me had always been I just never realised that he never left my side and never judged me and never will till the day I die

After some time when I calmed down Shin wiped my tears with his sleeves and I washed my face. He hugged me close and said

Shin - Are you feeling ok now ?
Shin- yeah, thanks Shin-chan ( hugged him back )

After that we went out we saw our group. They all comforted me and felt so good. Thanks god you giving me such great supporting friends specially Shinnoske

I saw the science teacher and the principal come and idk why they took Shinnoske away
Shin - Sorry guys I have some stuff to do

Author's Note -
Heyy my reads ! I finally wrote a long Chapter and I am feeling so good because of it! Tell me in the comments what do you think of this story.