Be mine forever

The missing thing

Date- 29th December-

No one's POV-
Shin-Byee ! Toru-kun Good night!
Kazama- Bye Shin-chan Good night!

It was night time Shinnoske and Kazama have just returned from the amusement park

Kazama's Mom- Oh u have returned hon take a bath I have prepared dinner
Kazama- Yes mom

Kazama took a hot bath to warm up his body, Had Dinner,Did some studying, watched Moe-P and came to bed. He layed down to sleep

Kazama's POV-
I layed down on my bed. It 's was an exhausting day but was fun. I had a lot of fun today with Shinnoske he really makes me happy. It was a great day but I idk why I felt disappointed like I was expecting something to happen today but it didn't. Today was perfect we rode all the rides, ate dilicious food, talked and laughed. What more could I possibly wish for? What is missing? I just know that something is but I can't exactly point it out. Idk when I fell a sleep

Kazama's Dream -

I was standing under a tree it was evening and the sky had beautiful shades of orangel and purple. I saw Shinnoske come to me. He held my hand and lifted my chin up

Shin- Hey Toru-kun
Kazama- Hi Shin     

I said with a smile on my face. I got closer to him till there was no distance between us and held his waist. The warm feeling of his comfortable hug came.

Shin- How was your day my dear?             
Kazama - It was good but there's this new teacher who is very strict
Shin- it's Okay just don't care about her

I gently caressed his cheeks and his dense black hair. He lifted my head and kissed me. God it felt so so so good it tasted like choco-bie and I now put my hands around his neck and buried my head in his chest. He smelled like a flower  and chocolate. He then kept his hands around my back

Kazama- I love you

I said in a whisper

Shin-And I love you more

Shinchan whispered back

I opened my eyes. What the hell did I just dreamed of!? How can I think about Shinnoske this way? I got up and kept a pillow behind my back. What the hell. I was in shock when I realised that the things I saw in my dreams were the missing things. I wanted to hug him , smell him , touch him , kiss him and hold his hand  that's what I wanted to do with him today! And that were the missing things. I love him! Am I gay? I got into deep thoughts to know when I started seeing Shinnoske this way and god I fell in love with him much earlier than I realised. The love I always felt towards him was in a romantic way. I remember when we were 5 and he left to Mexico it was soo hard for me to live without him. I desperately missed him and all I wanted to do was to see him. I just can't express the happiness I felt when I saw him after a few weeks. How can I think about him in such I dirty way I am gay! What will mom say when she will know that I am gay? How will Shinnoske react when he will know that I have a crush on him!? Will he hangout with me anymore heck Will he be friends with me anymore? And ik he is damn straight he liked Miss Nanako ! And he was soo sad when she got married!

Author's note-

Heyyy guys and gals sorry for late update I got a cold now the updates will be regular. And most of u are not voting pls vote if u like the part It means a lot to me plus u can remove it u decided to not like the part. Love u