when you drown your girlhood

i do not want to be someone's girl.

i used to wish i got to love you a little longer
but i came to the conclusion that
it was never love
only obsessive behavior

and my ego was eating away
at my bone marrow
telling me delusions and lies

you poisoned my arteries and veins with venom
then told me the worst thing of all
that i was claimed as your girl

even though i could have nightmares
of how you told another girl the same
before crawling your manipulative way
back into my yellow-like bruised arms

until i stopped the naive act
because the anxiety around your presence
would force me into an energetic heart attack