📢TRIGGER WARNING! 📢
| Ivy |
I stared at the shiny strip of metal between my shaky fingertips. Running my fingers over the sharp edges examining it, I felt a pit of guilt appear in my stomach.
All the words. The hate comments came flooding into my mind.
Pathetic
Bitch
Whore
Waste of space
Slut
Dad-less
Your dad never loved you
Tears rolled down my face as I remembered all the hatful things I'd been told.
Taking a deep breath, I lowered my hand so the blade was sitting perfectly on my waist.
"I'm sorry Dad" I whisper
As I did, I pressed the cold metal into my skin as I sliced across. As the line was made, red liquid rise to the surface overflowing over the cut.
I repeated the process ten times until i couldn't see my arm anymore but instead red blood exploding everywhere.
Tears poured dramatically down my face as i stared at my arm
What am I?
Soon everything stared going fuzzy and everything g was spinning. Moments later my body hit the floor as everything went black.
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My eyes slowly opened and I found myself laying on my cold bedroom floor. Letting out I sigh, I stood up examining the floor. Dry Blood everywhere. I looked at my arm which was covered in cuts and blood. As fast as possible, I ran into my bathroom and washed my arm wincing at the pain it caused!
Once it was clean, I got a bandage and wrapped it up.
If people ask I'll say I sprained my wrist...
After that, I cleaned my floor and opened all the windows to get rid of the blood smell then I spayed crap loads of perfume around my room.
God, that's gives me a headache!
Finally when my room looked normal, I grabbed my phone to check the time
8:40am
I'm late. Fuck
Shrugging, I went into the bathroom again and washed my face before going back into my room and getting changed
{ outfit at the top }
Thankfully my top was long sleeve!
After I got changed, I did my hair and makeup quickly before grabbing my stuff and rushing out the house.
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I walked down the busy halls, it was now third period and people were going to their lessons. Sighing, I entered English. English sucks ass. I hate it.
"Ah! Miss. May, just the person I was looking for!" My English teacher grinned clapping her hands together
"Come to the front please" she told me
Mrs.Hex was always so happy I don't understand it
"Yes?" I ask blankly
"You know Luke Hemmings?" She asked
I nodded
"Could you Tudor him please?" He begged
"Umm...no, sorry" I reply awkwardly
"Why? Please Ivy"
By now the whole class we in the lesson listening, even Luke.
"Fine" I mutter
She thanked me before I turned on my heels and took a seat at the front seeing as that was the only available seat.
Letting out a sigh, I escaped into my mind. Which was probably a bad idea..seeing as my mind isn't the best of places...
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"Why weren't you here this morning?" Cal asked as we sat down at our lunch table with the others
I shrugged not wanting to answer
"Woke up late?" Mikey suggested
"Ugh, yeah" I mutter swirling my fork in my pasta
Everyone started chatting away happy as ever while I just sat there staring at my plate.
Look at me sitting here all lonely. No one here really does care, Mason, Max and all them people were right... It's all true.
"Ivy, you okay?" Luke suddenly asked
I looked up to see everyone looking at me
I'm a freak I know, no need to stare at me! God!
"I'm not hungry anymore" I mumble standing up and throwing all my untouched food away and walking out of the food hall feeling tears appearing in my eyes
As I jogged out the hall, going down the corridor, I bumped into someone
"Ivy" Mason's voice echoed through my mind
I looked up slowly to see it was him I bumped into
"Can we talk?" He asked
"Ugh..n-no" I stutter nervously
"Why not? Please Ivy!" Mason sighed grabbing my arm
I flinched and backed away
"We can't be together anymore" I whisper
"Don't end our relationship! Please Ivy! Please" Mason cried
I bite my lip nervously and shuck my head
"I'm sorry..its o-over" I say my voice shaky
"No! Ivy, don't!" He yelled
I flinched and then heard Luke's voice
"Aye, Mason! Leave Ivy alone!" He called reaching us
Great. Now Luke is here! Perfect
"We are talking Luke, piss off" Mason growled
"Do you wanna fight?!" Luke challenged
"Stop" I whisper
"What?" Mason asked not hearing me
"We are done. Luke mind your own business" I say loudly not looking at them
Once I had done I walked away a tear slipping from my eye
I don't think I can do this anymore, things are just getting too much.
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Sorry about the cutting and gross bloody parts.. I tried not to go into lots of detail 😁
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