little vent (might delete later)

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So little time. So Meny peaces to put back together.

I've never tried to make enemies because I thought that everyone is nice and no one is mean but no that's not true is it? As a 14 year old you may see me as a "worthless pathetic child" and I shouldn't be on here doing random shit. I'm a child and I guess I can't do anything I can have any options because I like a Fictional Character that is way older then me. Dr Starline he reminds me of my boyfriend and if I can't talk to my boyfriend when my parents are fighting and yelling I would see pictures of Dr starline and I love him and he's my relatable/comfort character and the first character I Really loved. But I guess I can't have that since I'm a young child that can't have anyone or anything. I'm 14 years old and people still call me a Child and say I can't do anything because I don't have consent or control? I can't like anyone or anything without being called a slut or a kid or I couldn't love anyone because of my age. I know-

-the rules I fallow them I try to.. I love starline so much it hurts because I can't be myself infront of Anyone. The world made me think that I have no saying in this or I can't be this because I'm only 14! I know how to avoid ped0 I know how to stay away from that shit because it happened to me 2 times. Two Gosh damn times that happened. Thay made me think that I was "hot" because Thay got turned on because they liked my body. Thay liked my body but not Me. I wanna be a grown up. That's what the world thought me. Thay thought me if I wanted to be myself I have to be older to do so. I was so hart broken I started overthinking and the way that my overthinking was true Two times made me go into a down fall. I love Dr Starline and I love my boyfriend. If I am down I would go to my boyfriend but if it's to rough even for me I would go and read the comics because Dr starline is in it. He makes me feel that I'm safe with him. Even if he's a fictional character.


(Update)

I love him. I love him with all my hart. In Evey universe I love him in Evey galaxy I love him. And I'll never stop loveing him not even when I die I'll still love him. I cried so hard when I realized he was dead and I wanted him back. His first impression of me might see me as "weird" or not good looking in any way and he probably have other things to do. but I just wanna let him know that I love him and I've always loved him. The first time I discovered him it was like love at first sight. Gosh if I'm in a bad mood or sad one he makes me happy. He makes me feel something. He might be from a other universe but still I love him more than anything. I know there's some better people better, better looking ones then me.. better Drawers then me..but still I Love him. And I'll support you dr starline. If all sonic fandom and everyone in the world hates you Dr starline I Will keep loving you.

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