𝘔𝘳. 𝘗𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 ' 𝘻𝘦𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘣𝘪𝘯

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Have you ever woke up and felt like you want to fall asleep again and never get up for no particular reason?

That was me.

Well, it's still me.

But I had that reason.

I felt like this since I was six years old.

I woke up every day to the sounds of my parents arguing.

Even if I wanted to sleep in, the shouts would bring me back in the second I would close my eyes.

I started losing interest in living my life the way you are expected to.

You know what I mean by that, right?

Being happy, smiley, gorgeous looking with shiny, wavy hair, and glossy lips?

Yeah, that.

I felt like it was raining every day. The sun was shining but I felt drenched.

Every day I came home my dad was screaming...

...at me, my mom, my dog, anything?

Every carpet in our house smelled like vomit and alcohol.

Every wall was dirty from pizza sauce.

Every mirror was broken.

The only fridge we had was half of the time empty.

But who was the most broken was my mother.

Was she even my mother?

She changed into my father.

I don't blame her.

After all, it was easier to be on his side than mine.

Why there were sides? I didn't do anything wrong.

They argued but when they saw me, suddenly their mission was to do anything to hurt me.

Physically

Mentally

They didn't care how.

Was I the reason for their broken marriage?

It seemed like it?

Maybe I did something wrong after all.

So tell me, how should I be happy?

I hate my life.

I bet you do too.

Or maybe you don't, I don't care.

And nobody can convince me that love and happiness can bloom in my heart.

I'm Park Minseo.

Even my name sounds dumb.