Healing closed wounds

Part 49 - home

~ ALICES POV ~

The first day back to school was weird. Everyone looked at me like I was about to break. Somehow the rumours Victoria started are now gone. But the fact that I was abused isn't.

"Here you go Lis." My thoughts are cut off by Ivan handing me a drink from Starbucks.

He picks me up almost everyday for lunch.

"Victoria comes back on Monday." Hazel says from the back seat. Luna and Eleanor come along with me and Ivan some days.

"I won't let anything happen." Eleanor says defensively.

"Hey can you stop at the dollar store I wanna get some snacks!" Luna cuts in, leaning up against Ivan's seat.

"Sure." Ivan laughs softly as he drives across the street to the nearest store.

"Thanks Ivan!" Luna gets out first and Hazel follows.

"Are you guys coming?" Eleanor asks.

I shrug looking down at my drink. "We'll be in the car waiting." Ivan speaks for me as Eleanor leaves.

"What's wrong." Ivan shifts his body so he's facing me.

"Nothing." I say before taking a sip of my drink.

"Lis I told you to stop lying to me." I keep my eyes glued to my cup. But soon Ivan takes it and places it in the cup holder.

As I move my eyes to meet his, he waits. He waits for me to talk. "I'm scared." I whisper.

Ivan moves his seat back as far as it can go. He moves his arms to help me onto his lap. I hesitate at first. But soon he's holding me tight.

"I know it's not easy." He says softly. "But you're going to have to face her soon." I close my eyes as he speaks close to my ear.

"I don't want to." I say into his shoulder. Ivan kisses my head before speaking. "Do you want me to transfer to your school?"

I pull away from him. He would do that? No, I can't let him transfer just so I don't feel scared. I need to fight my own battles.

I shake my head before looking into his eyes. "Don't. I need to get over whatever fear I have of her." It's embarrassing to admit it. Being scared of someone is something I don't like to admit.

"But thank you." I whisper. Not meaning to I trace his jaw with my fingers. I soon realize what I'm doing and stop.

But Ivan takes my hand and kisses my palm. I practically melt in his touch. I lay back down on his chest not saying anything. I just want Ivan to hold me. I want to feel him and him only.

We stay like that for awhile. I almost fall asleep multiple times. But we're interrupted by Luna as she jumps into the car.

"I love you guys, but can you please move the chair up a bit?" Eleanor laughs as she stands outside of the open door.

"Oh sorry Elle." Ivan moves the seat back. I'm so close to the wheel I might honk the horn.

I try to leave his lap but he doesn't let go of me. "You have 30 more minutes. Let's just stay here." He leans his head back on the drivers seat. I stare at him as he stares back at me.

"Think fast." Hazel throws a pack of chips in my face. "Ow!" I throw the bag back at her.

"What was that for." I rub my face with my hand. "That hurt." I laugh.

"Sorry I just didn't want you guys making out in-front of me." Hazel opens the bag and starts eating.

I roll my eyes and Ivan finally lets me go. I move off his lap and back into the passenger seat. I keep my legs over the seat so my feet are on Ivan's legs.