Poems

DARKNESS

DARKNESS
by:JeanJane

I never knew, what love was supposed to be. I never knew,
 how it felt to be in love. For a life, of loneliness, has become a part of me,
So I thought, it best to lock away all of these... emotions, and to be alone as I was.
For I feared that if I let them out, I'd hurt others;
And worst, they'd hurt me.

don't know these feelings confused as i am lonely as i can be,
don't want to know the scars i have been hiding,
afraid that all of my effort would go to waste,
my... when did it all begin, my life is crumbling little by little,
i think i can still hold on... even a little,

And so, I sit here in this room, all alone,
Wishing for the answers but getting none.
I'm drowning in these emotions, yet, can't even shed a single tear.
Why am I like this?... I feel so confused... For I'm tired of this pain, I want to move on.
Yet, I'm scared. I'm alone...

waiting for a person to lend me hand,
waiting for them to notice the loneliness i have been feeling,
i was there for them,
why can't do the same, why can't they notice my pain,
i can notice their sadness so why can't they notice mine?

In order to escape from the darkness,
I try to shed this skin and find my light.
I'm tired of the demons, I want to be free to enjoy the light.
But the darkness won't let go, For it clings to my soul, and I can't let go.
And so,I'm trapped in a cycle of pain and self-hatred...
How do I break free of this darkness?
How do I escape the loneliness

every of my smile cost too much pain,
i don't know how explain,
the sadness i have been feeling the loneliness that won't let me go overthinking over and over again what would you think of me when i let it all out,
been crying myself to sleep lately, comparing myself lately, like "wow they're so lucky"

For this demon that is loneliness,

Will I ever find someone to help set me free? Will I be alone for the rest of my days Or will I finally find... My happiness?

And as I look at the end of this day, I think to myself... I'm tired and I'm alone,

Do I even have friends in my life? I'll always be alone,

but I guess that's alright, because in the end,

I'd rather be lonely, than someone's burden.

I know not why I keep on trying, No one knows me like I do,

 And I know for sure the future isn't bright,

Because my darkness is all I knew, I've lived in it all my life! All alone! And nobody wants to hear about my pain- So I guess, I'll be alone, From the beginning, To the end of my days.

Forever... alone... And in the end,

It won't even matter. I'll be dead and gone,

And no one will know my pain.

 And no one will notice... When I'm gone... I'll be all alone,

But nobody will know, Or care... They don't, now... So why would they... after I'm gone?