~* Bad decisions make great stories *~
A Harry Styles dark romance that explores the intricacies of mental health, morality and sexual attraction. Enter a world of sin, opulence and crime.
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It started and ended with the wind.
She was a hurrican...
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Working with Logan at Fantasia is far more enjoyable than I first suspected it could be, especially when Matt is a regular late night visitor to Logan's office. It is still hard to comprehend being around men that make me feel even remotely comfortable; yet the three of us lounge around smoking weed and talking about anything and everything with comfortable ease. Matt is particularly interested in discussing his relationship dramas and while I do not feel particularly qualified to counsel him, I try my best.
Logan often recounts stories about his past - focusing mostly on cars and street racing - and asks a lot of questions in return. I often have to subtly redirect the conversation to avoid answering.
I haven't let Matt touch me. He's apologised multiple times for his role that night and to be honest I'm not even mad at him anymore. I just don't trust him. I understand my place in the grand scheme of things; I'm a useless little nobody and his loyalties lie elsewhere and I need to always keep that in mind.
Both Matt and Logan are far more intelligent than I first gave them credit for and not once have either of them made any sort of inappropriate or sexual advance or comment towards me. I've found myself relaxing and enjoying male company in ways I never even imagined possible. And as long as I never let my guard down, maybe I'll be ok.
As good as things have been with the guys, I have barely spoken to Eli. Ever since that night in Harry's office it feels like he's been avoiding me. I see him often enough though - shadowing Harry, who keeps popping up everywhere like an ominous dark presence following me around. I have so many conflicting feelings around Eli. He initially made me feel so safe but I saw a darker side of him in that room and it scared me; since then he hasn't said a word to me.
Harry never speaks to me either. But I see him daily, like clock work, and can't shake the uncomfortable feeling in my body whenever I feel his eyes on me.
Tink is like a friend, boss and mother all rolled into one - she has spent a generous amount of time with me since I invaded her home. From spending several days with me trawling through Melbourne's finest Op Shops for second-hand bargains to helping me decorate my room; she also never misses a chance to feed me. She seems almost obsessed with getting as much food into me as physically possible. She's also watched hours of YouTube videos with me and is now fully on board with the pyramid theory. This might be what it feels like to have a best friend.
I have not heard from or encountered Evan. I still don't know how to feel about our 'break up' and it causes me a lot of anxiety at times. The anticipation of running into him - the liklihood of which is highly probable considering he works for Harry - makes my stomach twist painfully every time I am alone at Fantasia.
