Poetry for lovers

10

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I almost told him everything but my mind shifted,
and even though noone holds me back
it's as if my brain insisted
to not leave this everso torturing track

of oscillating between what's yes and what's no
of trying to hold in all that i feel
it's so hard to not, but even harder to show
all pieces of my heart convinced rather than you noone could steal.

You obviously don't know,
i mean why would you care
we don't talk, laugh or go
to meet up anywhere to declare

the thunderstorms of emotions that wander through my head,
as my friend draws our initials next to each other,
i could talk to you, make a move but instead
i think about doing so would only cause a bother.

So i don't.
And i sit here in silence,
admiring you from afar
and maybe sometime, someday,
we can shine together like stars.
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