ITS YOU ; DRACO MALFOY

chapter 205.

Informing my Mother on the happenings of my week are possibly the only things that I look forward to. I usually do it on a Sunday, when the week is over, but after the run in with Draco I decided to give her a surprise visit and complain some more to her. "And then he kissed my head, told me I'd be alright and just went."

The confusion that she feels is evident on her face and I agree with her. "I think you're both being rather stupid." I'm shocked at her for saying that. "Who do you want, Bella?"

Pulling my bottom lip in between my teeth, I skim my mind for an answer but I can't come up with one that will satisfy myself the best so I say, "Cedric."

My Mother doesn't believe that. "Okay and which one of us are you trying to convince?" She questions and I look down at my hands. "Bella, why did you break up?"

Maybe she'll understand if I tell her why but I don't want to. I don't want to think about why we broke up and I don't want to talk about it. "...we just couldn't stop arguing about anything." She sits up straight to listen better so I take that as my cue to continue. "I told him that I was tired of arguing and that we shouldn't be doing it over every little thing. He agreed with me and decided it would be best for us to break up because it'd be unfair for Lorelai to grow up in that kind of environment. I wanted to disagree with him and tell him that I didn't want to break up and that we shouldn't but he was right and I didn't want to be selfish so I stayed silent and then..."

"So why are you telling me that you love Cedric?"

Because I do. "It's better." Is all I can think of saying. "He's...so sweet to me and he always puts my needs ahead of his and he adores me and just makes me happy all the time. I can't say that about Draco. Was he sweet? Sometimes. Did he put my needs ahead of his? Yes. But did he make me happy all of the time? No."

"I know you're telling me that Cedric makes you happy all day, everyday but can you honestly sit there and tell me that Draco didn't make you happier?"

I go silent at that.

"I love Cedric like he's my son." My Mother informs and I nod. "But I can tell the difference, Bella. You don't want Cedric and you need to stop convincing yourself that you do. You and Draco need to talk to each other and work out your problems otherwise you're never going to get what you want. Both of you."

He doesn't want me. He's over me, he said it himself.

Half-heartedly, I remind my Mother that he has a girlfriend but she waves a dismissive hand at that. "He loves her...he's done with me. I think not telling him about Cedric really put the icing on that cake."

Questioning my previous decisions is what my Mother loves to do and my not informing Draco of Cedric is her favourite. "A little letter probably would have been nice for him. But you said that he followed you out of his office. He's still arguing with you about it all because he cares."

My mother just fuels my delusions.

Shaking my head, I state my disagreements but she doesn't agree with them at all. "Him and his girlfriend will break up in a week or so. He's using her to get over you and I know that sounds bad but you're doing the same thing with Cedric. Bella, when you're in love with someone you aren't interested in anyone else. If you are, you are not in love. You do not love Cedric."

I absolutely disagree, "No. Cedric's perfect for me there's just...I don't know, something's...missing..."

My Mother nods her at that. "Yes and that something is that he's not Draco." I roll my eyes. "You love Cedric because he makes you feel comfortable. You've loved him since you were younger and he's treated you the same throughout your whole life. And I know that you can't say the same about Draco but you love him so much more. I hate seeing you this way and it's annoying that you refuse to listen to me."

I let out a small laugh and run my fingers through the tips of my hair as I take in everything that she just said. "...you should get paid to do this." I suggest and the woman winks before holding her hand out for a note. The infectious giggle that she lets out allows me to know that she's kidding so I join in with her laughing.

With Cedric being at the Ministry today, I take on my original role of picking up Lorelai from Malfoy's and I force myself to endure some of the radio music to calm my nerves.

I've managed to avoid being in Draco's eye line for the rest of the week but now the week's over so therefore I need to pick up Lorelai from his house.

Practically stumbling out of the car, I skip up the steps to the front door and I shake my nerves before balling my hand into a fist and knocking gently.

Instead of Draco answering the door, it's the brunette he was kissing in his office — his girlfriend. "Hi, I'm Charlotte." She holds her hand out for me to shake but I'm too busy focusing on my heart sinking to the bottom of my stomach to acknowledge her.

Then, Draco comes to the door with Lorelai in his arms. Charlotte gives me a polite smile before disappearing inside the house and I stare at the blonde through my eyebrows. "What is she doing here?"

He scoffs at me, "You're not being serious?" I shrug my shoulders at that accusation. "You're completely unreasonable."

No I'm not. I'm being completely reasonable. "You can't bring your play things to your house when you have Lorelai. Could you not hold off for a week?"

Pushing his cheek out with his tongue, Draco shakes his head with such disbelief in his eyes. "She's not a fling, Parker, she's my girlfriend and I love her. And you know that so don't be a bitch."

I take Lorelai from him and turn to walk away when he calls my name. I stay rooted to the spot and after a few minutes, he brandishes the backpack in front of my face. "Bring it to the car." I order of him, refusing to look at him again.

Meanwhile I strap Lorelai in her chair, Draco opens the door to the backseat before tossing the backpack inside. "...I have some of your stuff, it's at my
house. Do you want it?"

Cutting off any romantic ties with him is what I need to do if I'm going to move on like he's done and giving him back his stuff will do just that. "Oh." I turn to look at him with that. Oh? What does that mean? "Uh...what is it?"

"A shirt, a book, some jewellery...stuff." I awkwardly answer, bringing my eyes to his once again.

The jewellery seems to trip him out as he furrows his brows at that, "I have it all, the jewellery." I scratch my forehead.

Snidely replying, "I mean the bracelets and rings that you got me. You could pass it all to Charlotte, I'm sure she'd love it," I cross my arms as he tuts.

It hurts thinking of giving everything to him but I have to. He's moved on so why can't I? "And the book?"

The book isn't his either but I don't want it. Maybe he could give that to Charlotte as well. "Pride and Prejudice."

Confusion is the only emotion that I recognise on his face with that. "Your father bought you that book." I don't care about that. "It's your favourite one."

Shrugging my shoulders dramatically, I say, "It doesn't matter. I can't read it anymore so you can have it or you can sell it, I don't care what you do with it, I just don't want it in my house."

Seeming as if he's doing me a favour, Draco opens the car door to the driver's side and stares at me expectantly. I pull my bottom lip in between my teeth before climbing in the car and checking on Lorelai in the back. "It's been good to see you again." I close my eyes at his confession and I allow the hurt to wash over me again. "Keep all the stuff. I want you to keep it."

Opening my eyes again, I gaze at him as his cologne wafts inside the car and I grab the steering wheel to keep myself from breaking down. "Why?" I find myself saying.

His hesitation is obvious. "Because I..." Nothing. He leaves me with nothing as he slams the door shut and walks back up to his house.