in my core 5 classes (history, science, math, english, language), i have no close friends. in spanish and science i have one person i talk to in each but no CLOSE friends. i have like 3 really close friends in my school and none of them are in ANY of my main classes. one of them is in gym, but that's every other day. one of my friends is in health, which is an everyday class, but that's it. i have another friend of mine in gym but she's technically not in my class. but i just hate my schedule so much because i feel like a friendless loser in all these classes. and then ofc there's the people that are like "we're best friends" and just annoy the shit out of me and i just WISH i had friends in that class (english) so i could show them that some people actually like me. and not to mention i feel like i;m being replaced by one of these close friends bc she met someone else in school that she def likes more than me. and i want to be friends with this girl, but then my friend might accuse me of copying her or whatever. i actually have a few 'friend crushes' iykwim like there's actually a few people in my grade that seem cool and nice and are swifties and i would love to get to know them but even if i did i still hate that none of my three closest friends in school are in ANY of these classes with me. LITERALLY JUST THREE PEOPLE. THATS ALL I FUCKING ASK. last year was SOOOOOOOOOO much better in this regard because i had friends in science and english and the other classes i had people to talk to that weren't the close friends, but the thing is they talked to me first unlike this year where the people i sit near would never have an actual interest in becoming my friend and its all just UGH i hate this so muchhhhhhhhhhhh
