Love & Regrets

Chapter 3

~Because of You
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Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid...
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Alivia Imara's POV

Its been a hard days for me after Clovis made that phone call, halos araw araw kasing may Ferrero Rocher dito, kundi flowers ang kasama, mga favorite CD's ko, bear, mga novels and etc.

If I'm right, its been exactly seven days na ang nakalipas but hindi pa siya nagpapakita sakin.

Hindi sa hinahanap ko siya ah, but I want to tell him to stop. I don't want to be rude but I can say straight to his eyes that I totally move-on years ago.

I've decided to call him today.
I call back the unregistered number. A few rings later, a husky soothing voice answered...

" Hi, my Imara...what made you call?...huminto siya sandali, magsasalita na sana ako pero parang naumid ang dila ko sa idinugtong niya...I miss you and I love you..."seven words yet it affects me so much but I'm sure that I'm through with him, am I?

"Ahm, C-clovis please naman, huwag ka ng magpadala ng mga kung anu-ano dito sa opisina ko, ayokong matsismis ako o magka-isyu man lang.ok?" I stuttered, why does my heart beats so weird? It must not been love...

"Its my way on making up on days I'm not in your side, sorry for not tagging myself to you last week, I've been..."

"Stop okay? I don't need your explanation and I don't really care. What I'm saying is you need to stop bugging and bothering me." Pinutol ko ang anumang sasabihin niya. Ayoko na kasing maalala ang mga panahong naging tanga ako dahil sa kanya.

"My Im--"

"Don't call me that way, its Imara without my okay? I don't know if I'm going to tell you this but your cutting of my patience and symphaty for you...Clovis, to tell you honestly I'm really done with you and your antics. I've move on since day one. I don't feel the same with you. And why are you bothering me when you are the one who put as to end.why Clovis?"I'm shock, tumulo ang luha sa mata ko pero ayokong malaman niya iyon,I want to stay strong for my special someone now. Di ko pwedeng ipakitang mahina ako dahil baka samantalahin niya na namang muli.

Tumahimik bigla sa kabilang linya.
A long silence that I thought would be forever but I heard him sob, yes he sob. Parang nais madurog ng puso ko pero hindi dahil sa mahal ko siya pero dahil naaalala kong muli ang mga panahong lumuha ako dahil sa kanya. Yung mga panahong lahat ng tao ay sakin nagalit ng dahil sa kagagawan niya. Yung mga panahong I experienced bullying through different sororities and fraternities. Yes, I've been there.Done that.

" Imara, I have my reasons, its for you too. I've love so much that I can't sacrifice your safety being with me. I really love you believe me. His sob gone harder. I-imara one more,one more chance please. I've regret what I've done in the past. I'll do anything for you to forgive and love me again." I choke my sob, he makes me cry twice today and it makes me realize that he is really no good for me. For sure, he'll always make me cry.

"You'll do everything?" I asked seriously. I wiped my tears. He's not worth it.

"Y-yes my Imara, everything..." He answered.

I take a deep breath and without hesitation I tell him what I really wish for...

"Clovis, please just this once hear me, please... I heard him take a deep breath on the other line. I knew him, he's biting his lips now.ughh stop! Stop thinking of him.

...Let me go."

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A/N

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(6-18-15)