Lost hope [Xiaother Omegaverse]

39. Life in danger

Aether's POV

I was home alone. Kazuha and Tomo went together on a small date to relax. I was actually glad that they agreed to my offer. Being alone was something I needed right now.

So many things happened today. I still can't believe that Xiao is my fated partner. It doesn't feel real.. it feels like a dream. But even if it is real and it's not a dream.. I don't know what I should do. Xiao might be my destined partner.. but I have feelings for Scaramouche..- at least I think I do.

I might fear him now.. but it's only because I remembered what happened on that day. I got scared that this might happen again.. but it wasn't his fault it happened.. right? My brother felt responsible for what happened. I don't really understand it for now, but my heart tells me it wasn't Scaramouche's fault. I don't want to blame him. But at the same time.. I don't know what should I do..

I have known Scaramouche for some time now. He isn't a bad person after all. He showed affection and care towards me multiple times. And.. apparently, we do have high pheromone compatibility.. but I don't feel it. I don't know the reason.. but could it be.. that I do have a twin sibling? But then.. how would I not know about it? No one ever said anything about it..

And then, there is Xiao. He is my fated partner. I.. don't know much about him. He saved me.. on that day. And today.. we ended up as a fated pair. I know nothing about him.. how can I know if I will like him? It would feel awkward to be friends with him from now on. They say that a fated partner is the best thing that could happen to you.. but how can it be?

Ah.. I must be the only one who thinks like that. After all.. I'm not driven by my Omega side. I act and think on my own accord, while others go with their second-gender instincts.

I just don't want to make a mistake in my life. What if I won't like Xiao? What if only my instincts want him? This.. is so complicated and messed up- Why do I have to be an Omega?? I never asked to be one..!

My hands formed into a fist as I hit a wall beside me. I gritted my teeth as I leaned onto the wall with my head.

"Why..." I hit a wall again with one of my hands feeling frustrated "I... don't wanna be.. an Omega...! Just- why!" My eyes started to get wet as small tears slid down my cheeks.

I know nothing will change. I can't do anything about being an Omega. I should just finally accept it and live on with it. But it's hard to accept it. My second gender.. caused a lot of problems. How can this be any good? So far I have been through only suffering with my second gender-

No.. wait... things were fine.. before my parents died. Back then... everything was fine, everyone was happy... but now.. this happiness is gone. I'm causing trouble to my brother.. he has to take care of me.. ah.. I hate it...

I hugged a pillow and buried my face in it. My hands were trembling a little bit. I hated myself for causing trouble to my brother. He has to worry about me all the time.. and make sure I am fine and safe. Why.. is he still doing this? Isn't he tired of doing this..? Tired.. of me?

Ahh.. my head feels a little weird...- No.. my whole body feels weird. It's losing its strength.. I feel so weak right now.. ah.. what's happening..? Everything feels so strange..-

I tried to grab my phone but it was hard to move my hands. After a moment I did succeed. My fingers were barely moving- no.. they were shaking as well. It was hard to pick my brother's number but I did it after a moment.

Wait.. why am I calling him? He is on a date.. I shouldn't disturb him. I should just take a nap and everything will be fine-

"Hello, Aether? Do you need anything? Is everything fine?" It was Kazuha's voice. He picked up. He still worries about me on his date.. why..? I am not worth it..