Why Me?

Chapter 4

^yes that is my vision of Nila-Grace.
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The final bell rang and I walked out the door. "Wait up!" I heard Chase call out. I stopped and turned around and waiting for him to get there.

He finally got there and he grabbed my hand. Intwining our fingers. Gosh these butterflies get me everytime!!

I knew I was blushing because I heard Chase say "Aww...you are SO cute when you blush!!" I giggled.

I started thinking about My mom and Noah. Was the accident really my fault? If I didn't have to go to that stupid birthday party they might still be here.

"Hellllllooooo....." Chase said.

"Oh...sorry." Is all I managed to get out.

"Aww..why are you crying, honey?" He said.

"Just thinking" I said.

"About?" He said.

"My mom and my brother..." I said sniffling.

"When will I get to meet them?"

"Um...th-they-y ar-r de-ead." I said between sobs.

"Oh my gosh! I didn't know. I shouldn't have brought it up. I'm so freaking retarded."

"No your not!" I said "you didn't know" I looked up at him. He was just about a inch taller than me. He cupped my face in his.

"I think I...love you..." He didn't give me time to answer. He slammed his lips into mine before I could say anything. They were so soft and sweet. It seemed like time stood still and it was us. I wanted to kiss them all day. We stood there for like 10 minutes, while our lips were moving in sync. I wrapped my arms around his neck and started playin with his hair and he wrapped his arms around my waist. I broke the long kissing session.

"I know I love you..." I said trying to catch my breath.

"Hey can I come over today?" Chase said while we turned down our street.

"Umm...sure" I said, smiling.

"Ok...I'll see you at 5:00. Bye Nila-Grace" he said as I walked up to my front door.

"You can just call me Nila if you want to?" I said while putting my hand on the doorknob.

"I like your whole name. It's beautiful, just like you." He said.

"What's your full name?" I asked him.

"Chase Lane Matthews."

"Oh," I said while my face dropped.

"What's wrong?" He asked while walking up the front door and standing beside me.

"Uh...nothing." I said.

"Yes it is...please just tell me babe," he said while grabbing my hand.

"Um, it's just...." I pause, "it's just that Noah's Middle name was Lane." I said as one little stray tear fell.

"Oh...why do I always to that to you?" He said and I sorta giggled.

"It's not your fault. I just don't talk about them a lot."

"I'm sorry," he said.

"It's okay" I said, smiling.

"Ok...I'll see you at 5:00 babe," he started walking away.

"I love you" I said.

"I love you too" he said while smirking.

I walked in the front door.

"Why are you here and where have you been?" My dad said while he was cutting carrots. Wow, he's actually cooking. 'For the first time in forever'. Yep he's drunk.

"'Cause I live here. And school. Where else would I be?" Uh-oh. Did u just say that out loud? Gosh Nila. Why do u have to be so dumb. Now I know what's coming.

"EXCUSE ME?" He said while throwing the knife, he was cutting carrots with down.

Uh-oh. Shits about to get real.